Enforced Change…!

Since I’ve recently had my computer repaired, I’ve found it impossible to write anything.  I offer myself various reasons – I’m tired, can’t be bothered, don’t know what to write about.  Nothing seems significant enough for me to comment on….all lame excuses for my lack of creativity, which appears to be  having a rest at the moment!  Seems like it was more than just my computer that reached breaking point…created by enforced change!

Not only that, but instead of finding consolation, I’m finding it increasingly difficult to listen to other people’s messages of motivation.  Where an uncharacteristic, common response from me is something like old Scrooge saying…BAH!…HUMBUG!…to anything he doesn’t want to deal with!

The strange thing is that I’m not really that worried about not writing at the moment… And I don’t want to listen to ‘them’ as I’ve heard it all before, no-one is telling me anything new…etc.! (No disrespect to anyone here – it’s just how I’m feeling at the moment)!

So if I’m not writing or listening to others, what AM I doing?

Well interestingly enough, I am making decisions most of the time now…which is somewhat of a surprise to me, as previously I found it difficult to make choices which meant I committed myself to anything! Of course that reluctance is linked to my inner fear, my life circumstances, and my indecision traits exaggerated because I’m a Libran (that’s my excuse anyway)! But what has happened, that made me want to over-ride my own negative traits?  What made me want to change my habits of a lifetime?

I’m wondering whether my apparent intolerance to some things, is simply a way to make me focus on issues that are more important and relevant to ME – unfinished business and all that stuff….!  After all, this is said to be a time for letting go of the Piscean past, that holds us back from the Aquarian future.  And if we don’t change what we’re doing we will suffer the consequences of remaining stuck – and whatever they may be they will not be comfortable to experience I’m sure!

To understand this we have to take account of the current energetic changes that have taken place recently…!

There was much hype about the 21.12.12 date and how things would change.  And whilst there were those who predicted doom and gloom, I think many were hoping this event would provide the ‘MIRACLE’, that would magically fix our lives, that would give us clear insight into what we should be doing, and where we should be going!  I know I was hoping this energetic change would mean things would get a bit easier for us – as the past has certainly be harder to cope with than most of us expected!

Alas…change wasn’t going to be that easy…it never is, is it?

But whilst there appears to be no obvious changes in my life,  if I let go of my expectations of what I would’ve liked to have happened, and look back over recent months – since 21.12.12, I can clearly see how changes in my mentality have occurred , and how I am using my power in a different way than before – as since this time I am attempting to design my actions for MY benefit, to meet MY intrinsic soul needs, rather than spreading my energy over external matters that regularly leave me feeling drained and exhausted!

I am trying to manage my own energy in a different way (this does take a bit of practice), and whereas before 21.12.12 I felt ‘stuck’, for some reason since that date I don’t. And although I’ve still not got a strong energetic pull in any particular direction to express my creativity, which still frustrates me, my heart is pulsing to speak, to share, to help and assist, wherever I am driven to do so!

However, I still have to remind myself to remember, that like everyone other human on this planet, I (or my energy) is being changed.  And that I am metamorphoses in action.  Where as my energy field seeks ways to adapt and adjust to new vibrational frequencies, my physical body tries to do it’s own thing to re-stabilise, whilst my mind and emotions want to freak-out because of the unknown inevitabilities we face in the forthcoming future!  Phew…what an upheaval!

Yet strangely enough, whilst on some level I feel quite chaotic, in my heart centre my soul breathes love at last!  IT, my restricted, trapped, higher self, feels peace because it knows the time is right to be free from my human restraint.  I feel reassured that what we’ve been waiting for so long, has now started to arrive…although it still makes me nervous to know that our destination is a long way off yet…so there’s still more work we each have to do, to get where we need to be!

The journey of ego-control has been such an arduous trek, where those of us who followed our soul-guidance found hardship, challenge and intense pain, when actually we sought to find internal peace.  I know as I got deeper into our ‘ascension process’ and realised what our pathway ahead looked like, I felt such utter despair at the enormous task I’d agreed to undertake. And whereas at one time I thought that cognitive correction or reframing was all that was necessary for me to reduce my fear-filled existence, I soon realised I was actually healing my energy of pain from other times, other lives, other existences, that it had encumbered since the beginning of time.

WHAT A HUGE TASK !!! – But how can we succeed in changing the way we live, to a world filled with loving and compassionate beings, when everyone and everything else had failed in the past?

But I had to trust that the universe knew what it was doing, as man certainly didn’t!  I wanted to believe my channelled messages that spoke of self-healing first, before we can truly help others.  Messages over the many years that tried to reassure me that my fear was my own creation, that it wasn’t real in true terms, that only love could set us free from our fear-filled belief system! As I faced my darkest demons, I wanted to trust that I was protected, and guided at all times by compassionate beings affiliated to universal God energy. I had to learn that I was multi-dimensional, and that was hard!

Many searching like me, gave up along the way.  Many persevered, and have survived their self-defeating mentality.  Regardless, this is a universal healing exercise – we will all be converted back to our original SELF, at some time in the future.  The plan is bigger than human….and it has to happen – for our benefit!

We all like to know where we’re heading, as we can prepare ourselves.  But no-one really knew what would happen on or after 21.12.12.  I usually channel clear, trustworthy information most of the time that helps me understand the truth of the world, but I’ve not been able to access my sources lately, due to the over-activity of my mind.  Thus, whilst I can clearly identify the TRENDS of energy that compel us to move in certain directions, I’m having to take guidance from others, who have gained access to higher wisdom that is meant to help us evolve our consciousness. This means as I gather information, I can formulate ideas about what direction we are energetically being propelled into, confirm or dispel the idea according to my levels of global and personal discernment, leaving me with a sort of clear picture of what is happening to our species!

This is what I know so far….

There was speculation that this energetic shift would bring up old issues to be healed….This I’ve found to be true, as many childhood/past life/other issues that I’ve dealt with over the years, have re-surfaced for final healing and release, where most of the time I just had to let the memory go, so to release it from my mental and emotional energy field.

I’ve heard many people saying they are physically affected by this energy shift…exhausted, spaced out, confused, disorientated, became ill where they needed to see their GP (even holistic therapists have sought help from allopathic treatments).  This is our body adjusting to the new energy vibration, which will indicate any pre-existing condition that needs healing, that will limit our energetic capacity for expansion. So we need to listen to what our body is telling us now, at this time.  If we feel exhausted maybe we need to rest for a while, rather than keep pushing forward toward our perceived goal.

Releasing the ego has always been a big issue for us….but if it’s our time to let it go, then it will be easier to change than to carry on as we are.  Because the opposing energy will make us feel so bad we won’t want to stay as we are!

Our mind is the Creator!  If we haven’t grasped it already, this will be the time when we realise without doubt, that we are the creators of our world, caused by the thoughts in our mind!  Our thoughts, when linked to our emotions, have the power to manifest the content of our fear/love!  Regardless of whether we realise it, or like it or not, the choice of what we manifest is ours!  Be careful what you wish for….good advice at his time I’d say!

Also, it’s useful to remember….

*We are all here to help each other!

*There is no one higher than ourselves who can help our soul evolve!

*We have all the wisdom we need within our consciousness – we just have to find a way to access that information!

*There is no single miracle cure! Miracles are happening all of the time, as every minute of the day a miracle occurs somewhere, in someone’s life.  You can all receive miracles at will! You just have to be clear about what you want to receive, let go of how it will happen, and trust that it will manifest at some time – but it must be for the highest good!

*No-one can harm you once you are on your soul path, because your perception of ’harm’ changes!

Humans are going through enforced change and have been doing so for many years.  But we are involved in a process that is in its final stages of a particular phase, that will now affect us and our lives by pushing us out of our comfort zones! We can delay it if we choose, but we can’t escape it, as earth and it’s inhabitants are protected by powers that be, that must ensure our future survival.

So, rather than resisting change, it’s probably easier to stand steady and let the change occur around you.  That way you may avoid unnecessary turbulence!

However, each of us has to work with our energy, to correct our misconceptions of life, to be accountable for our thoughts, feelings and actions! It’s our responsibility to heal our own energy, to work with our soul, our higher self, to bring us back into alignment with our true God nature!

Life becomes more comfortable once we take the emphasis off others making our life easier, and face our personal challenges with gusto!  As once we start to recognise the power we do have, to transform ourselves, we may start to use it to change our world!

Have a great day everyone!

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LIFE…!

Life brings challenges in all forms, that we have to somehow find a way to cope with. But it’s not always easy.  And when we lose our positive/negative balance in life, it’s not uncommon for feelings of hope and optimism to become overwhelmed by feelings of frustration and despair, that increase our fears about the future.

Our mind is filled with ways to protect ourself because we’ve lived a reality that’s governed by oppression, repression and suppression.  Yet we yearn to be free!  We yearn for the freedom to have what we want, do what makes us happy, and to feel a peace inside that lets us know that all is well in our world, and that we’re okay, even though turbulence is all around us!

Historically our existence has been structured around the search to achieve something that’s missing from our life, leading us to embark on a quest to satisfy the void we feel internally. However, whilst in the past we’ve nominated something or someone to fix our disquiet, we’re now starting to realise that our empty internal space can’t always be consoled by factors that make us feel financially secure or physically acceptable!

So although we still seek ways to survive our negative feelings, we’re now looking for something different, something that money can’t buy.  Now we’re looking for ways to feel complete!!

It’s still unclear whether this completeness comes from simply being in control of ourselves! Regardless, we must allow ourselves to challenge how we think. As whilst we continue to allow ego to determine our logic, we will be led back into the old way of life that is self-destructive, because it’s governed by our illogical need to avoid fear!

Humans are creative, energetic beings. So when we worry and no resolution is apparent, anxiety drives us to focus on what we don’t have or what we can’t do. Thus, when we face problems, unless we learn to monitor and control our thinking, we can find ourselves locked into feelings of powerlessness that cause us to stagnate in frustration, anxiety and anger….

Creating even more problems, because we’re fighting a battle that can’t be won, simply because we don’t understand the creative, but sometimes destructive power we have access to!

The clarity of our intuitive mind has become dulled by our need to be in control.  We need to feel safe, so we do what we must to ensure this, by being on constant mental alert so we can fix anything that takes us outside of our personal comfort zone!  However, this way of operating means our mind is filled with chaotic, conflicting messages that evoke fearful emotions, that in turn promote fear-filled thinking.

In other words, our mind is a tangled web of self-deceit, that we have created because we are afraid of everything!

Many like myself, believe that when we are fully aligned with the universe and our spiritual Self is firing on all levels, we will become authentically whole. And so can utilise the full force of our creative nature to manifest what we need, simply by thinking about it! The problem is, we have evolved within an erroneous logic, where what we believe as true, may prove to be false and vice versa!

We don’t really understand our energy or power yet. But we know we have a battleground in our mind, where every emotion has dominating thoughts associated to it, that can affect us negatively or positively, depending on how we mentally and emotionally react to the way we feel.  So it’s already clear that when we are in distress, our mind can become overloaded with reactive thoughts we struggle to control or understand!

And to make matters worse, our ego personality is not a singular unit. It has many aspects we’ve created over lifetimes, each with a voice that distorts our judgement by making us feel that we’re better or worse than others, that we’re a loser or a winner when we’re not, and we are more or less than we should be!

However, once we enter a dimensional reality that opposes our ego-logical mind, our rules of existence are challenged by the intangibility of spiritual reality, meaning the logic that has kept us safe collapses, and so does our ego-personality, causing us to flounder in the depths of the unknown! But even though we are in the throes of evolution, which will eventually change our world – for the better we hope, we are unprepared for this process!

The information we receive in our mind comes in the form of thoughts and images, which we interpret according to our understanding of life.  The problem is, we can’t correctly interpret  information we receive intuitively, until we learn to differentiate information from our logical mind, our egotistical personalities, entity attachments, or wisdom from higher spiritual sources.

But as spiritual intangibility conflicts with our logic, once our mind opens to higher consciousness and we become more ‘psychic’, the battle in our mind will increase.  As there will be more voices, thoughts, influences and images flitting through our mind, that we will have to process mentally! Therefore, as we evolve into higher consciousness, our real problem then becomes how to identify what voice in our head is speaking the truth.

Where trying to make sense of the logical and spiritual worlds as they merge, can send our mind reeling, as we struggle to comprehend unfamiliar mental experiences and cope with physical energetic changes!

However, one thing is for certain….

Because we have entered a stage of evolution that affects us physically, mentally and emotionally, it’s impossible for us to carry on as we are spiritually!

And whilst we may resist anything that causes a disruptive influence to our comfort zones, changes in universal energy are purposefully designed to implement energetic healing that will restore, repair and regenerate earth energy. A natural phenomenon, that whilst causing chaos and destruction to our historical and habitual existence, will nevertheless bring balance to an imbalanced situation called LIFE!

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Human Evolution

I’m re-posting my article about Human Evolution, because it’s so connected to changes around December 21st!

Human Evolution.

And whilst it’s natural to feel afraid, because of the fear-generated stories that we’ve been fed about this date, we have to remember that the major changes are being caused by astrological events, that will in turn gradually affect us – just like solar and lunar power does.  So really, there is nothing to fear, except fear itself!

More about this astrology can be found here……

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=hlfYHAV1i8w

Although it’s a long film, it does give lots of useful insight into what’s actually happening to us!  And reinforces the idea that our real power lies in the way we use our mind, to create our life and who we are!

Although I’ve severly doubted myself and my intuitive knowledge over the years, I can’t help but recognise things being said now, that I was told nearly twenty years ago!  So I often wonder what my life would have been like if I had trusted this inner knowledge, and the source of the information that came from beyond this world, and developed my world around it!

Mmm.  Too late for regrets now eh!

However, I’m not so quick to doubt myself nowadays, thank goodness!  So let’s hope I follow my guidance in the future, instead of believing my fear mind that was telling me I wasn’t good enough for…..everything!!  You get the gist I’m sure!

So, hopefully, you won’t make the same mistakes I did!

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Everyone Matters!

I know it may sound corny, and I know you’ve probably heard it said a million times or more.  But today I’m taking the risk to say it once again…Everyone Matters!!

It’s christmas, and is the time when feelings and emotions we’ve kept suppressed or hidden, find their way to the surface!  The feelings that make us say that ‘I’m okay’ when really we’re not!  The thoughts that make us think we’re not bothered, when really we are!

Christmas has an uncomfortable tendency to bring our problems and isolation to a peak, because whilst christmas is supposed to be a time of joyful giving and good will, there are those who have no-one in their lives to enable this participation of exchange of loving energies! So instead of being a time of joy, christmas becomes an intolerable nightmare of acute recognition, of just how bad life actually is!

There are many lonely people out there, who don’t let on how bad they feel about themselves and their life.  It doesn’t really matter if they live alone, or with others.  Or how old they are!  They feel as they do, and hate the way they feel, because they feel insignificant. They feel they don’t matter!

But if just a few of us made the effort to watch others a bit more closely, to talk to others a bit more often, then loneliness may not feel so bad.  Because just a few words, or a simple gesture of friendship, can make that lonely person believe that someone, somewhere, cares about how they feel!

It hurts when we feel that we don’t matter, that no-one is on our side, that there’s nobody we can call on to comfort us when we feel upset. The great sadness is that there are so many people who feel this way! Children, adults of all ages, even our pets need our love and companionship!

We think our pain is just our pain, but it’s not!  It’s part of the whole of humanity that is turning a corner in its evolutionary journey of change.

So as we enter 2013, let’s make a point of doing things differently…!

Let’s start caring about everybody, including ourselves.  And including those that we think harshly of, or resent, or dislike, or want to punish because they’ve hurt us in some way, at some time!

We don’t have to go back for more of the same.  We just have to let all the pain and resentment created in the past, leave our energy system, so it stops causing us more pain in the future! And when we start to think negatively, which we do because we’re human, all you need do, to create a miracle, is simply start thinking loving thoughts.  The energy changes immediately!

So when you walk along the street and see someone in pain, or needy, or hurting.  Or someone who is scared, or angry, or proud.  Instead of thinking about what they’re doing to make their life worse (or yours), remember they are simply a soul, like you, on a learning journey! Then let your heart fill with love, and mentally send it straight to them.  That’s all you have to do!

They and you will feel the benefit of this energy exchange, and it will cause a ripple effect that unites with everyone else who is sending out loving thoughts and feelings.  And when we can all feel this loving energy in our hearts, we will truly know that we all matter, as we are all part of the whole of humanity!

If you are alone, or hurting, or confused, or ailing this christmas, I want you to know that even though I don’t know you, I care that you feel this way!  And although I may not physically be able to help and support you, I would like to let you know that my prayers filled with love will find their way to you, along the universal energetic pathways, which may help reassure you that you are never really alone! Not totally!

I wish each of you a merry christmas, regardless of where you are and who you are with.  And a heart and life filled with the miraculous healing energy called love, that will create the miracles you’ve dreamed about!

Sending you all love, light, peace, joy, and many blessings for the future starting 2013.

Chrissie xx

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‘Who am I?’ – A time for change!

I’m sure I’m not the only person asking themselves ‘Who Am I?’ at this moment in time, where as the pressure of futility increases, due to Christmas being just around the corner, we wonder what’s happened to our life.  How did we end up where we are?  As regardless of how hard we’ve tried to change or how much cutting-back we’ve done, lack of money and ever-increasing bills to pay, is still causing problems for so many, including me.  And although we may use relaxation and self-help techniques to help us cope with our rising stress, we are still highly stressed, because of the way we feel about us, our life, and our future!

To be honest, it feels like things will never change, and they could even get worse, as there’s no signs of improvement to global financial problems that affect each of us.  And to top it all, we’ve got ascension energy pushing and shoving us into emotional and mental places we’ve tried to avoid, in order to release latent emotional energy that we’ve held on to for too long. Causing frightening physical symptoms that worry us even more!

Wowee!! … What a ride, as internal and external pressure  causes havoc to our energy! And regardless of whether you believe in all of this energetic stuff or not, the pressure is still really intense!!

However, whilst our human problems appear so overwhelming to us, we should realise that our problems are not the main issue here.  As planetary, energetic, and spiritual influences are affecting us also, where there is a merging of elements taking place that will create significant changes to our future.  With an ultimate transformational purpose that is designed to protect us from self-destruction. Hard to believe?  Yes of course it is!  But how do we know it’s not true?

My guidance tells me it’s about ‘Healing the heart of man’, and that helps me to realise that change will be a good thing for us.  Yet I find it incredible that this is the time when evolutionary changes manifest, that will eventually change our lives forever! So many of our ancestors have been wiped out in the past, during this process.  Is this REALLY the time when we do it differently?  Where we change before it’s too late! What an amazing thought that is!!

I often wonder about our future, and the world as it may be someday.  It’s hard to imagine the new, prophesised world, where love and compassion are the fierce energetic prompts that guide our thoughts, feelings and actions. We’ve all been hurt so much by each other, throughout our existence, that we’ve been conditioned to accept pain as an inevitability of life.  But this is not how it should be!  And yet if this is all we’ve known, or remember, then how can we know how to create the necessary changes that will sustain life and happiness, instead of destroying it? But maybe this responsibility doesn’t fall just on our shoulders.  Maybe there is a higher universal intelligence that can help us do what we need to do!

I’ve communicated with the Sirian High Council, the Pleidian Elders, Lemurians and Atlanteans, as well as others.  I’ve also communicated with God energy, angels, guides, entities etc.  But how do I know these are true and real, as they are in my mind?  How do I know I’m not insane when I converse with these beings from afar?  And yet their influences have helped me so much, to understand how to survive this world!  So I believe there is help from these sources!  And yet it doesn’t really matter whether I believe in them or not does it?

As regardless of our circumstances, and who we are, one thing is for certain.  We’re already changing – we are not the people we once were.  Our life is different, our ambitions are different, and our future is not the one we were planning on. So because we’ve lost the ‘old picture’ we had created in our mind, about who and what we would become, it can feel as though we’ve lost our identity, or we are dying.  When the reality is that we’ve lost sight of who we are, because we, as we once were, are no more! And believe it or not, this is a good thing!

Basically what’s happened is that because we’ve had no option other than confront or control our rising fear, caused because of external to us circumstances, we have broken through the protective barrier that the ego had created.  Which kept us isolated, small, defensive and afraid.  We were reactive to a lot of things, but now we know, from our futile experiences of over-reacting, that when the tables are turned against us, we should and can stand steady and strong.  Knowing that in time, somehow, we will find the answers we need, the strength we lack, and the motivation to move ourselves beyond our stuck points, to a more comfortable life position. In other words, instead of running with our fear, we learn to trust that we can help ourselves in better ways!

It’s common knowledge that the Mayan calendar ends soon, which because of our linear thinking leaves us fearing the worst.  But now, because something is ending and we can’t see the beginning of anything new, we get anxious, feel vulnerable and start to panic about what’s going to happen to us and our world! There are those who foretell disasters, doom and gloom – even the end of the world!  But I don’t believe any of that, although the world as we know it will undoubtedly change, which could be symbolised as an ending.  Not before time I would add, as I know there has to be a better way to live our life, than the way most of us live now, where we struggle to survive against the turning tides of those in power, who have brought us to our knees.

But guess what!  We are stronger than they think!  We are braver than they anticipated!  And our heart and soul is getting ready to challenge those who want to keep us frozen in fear!  We want our life back, we want to be free not only from our anxiety and worry, and politics that squeeze the breath out of us.  But mostly we want to be free from our own fear, because we now know that this is the thing that upsets us the most.  And because we are human, we will make it happen eventually, now that we are starting to accept that we have the power to change how we feel – at will! (This is true by the way!).

Many foretell of a new energy reaching earth, that will take us on to a different dimensional level of being.  Which as a consequence of existing within a higher vibration, will enable us to become more intuitive.  We will be able to see the truth of life, and value what really matters.  There are many thousands, if not millions of people who have already reached this level, because they’ve spent their time developing their Selves, pursuing peace instead of conflict, freedom instead of control! But there’s many more who still have work to do in this area, if they want their life to improve! Where the choice at the moment is ours – live in fear, or find a way to manage and disperse any fearful prompts that disrupt our energetic balance.

When we’re afraid, we look for solutions to our problems and often fail to recognise that life is becoming a prison of misery. As when we feel deprived of what we need, over a long period of time, we can end up believing we don’t deserve anything other than what we’ve got.  We lose our confidence, our drive to succeed, our dreams and aspirations!  And we forget who we are, as we believe we are nothing!  Our energy is low, we lack enthusiasm, we get depressed, angry and upset, because we lose hope that things will ever change for us!

If what I’m describing seems familiar to you, then I know you have suffered like I have!  I’ve tried for many years to work out the best way to live, to survive financial, emotional and mental crisis!  I’ve also had quite a few traumatic spiritual experiences as well, but that story can wait for another day, for now!  The point is our suffering was not for nothing!  It was all about the energetic transformation process that is happening now!

About nine  years ago, whilst I was laying in bed one night, I saw an image of the earth in my room, in front of my window.  Regardless of whether my eyes were closed or open, the green and mauve image remained. I wondered if I was dreaming or becoming psychotic, and so pinched myself, stood up and went out of the room, returned and sat on the bed.  The image was still there!  As I watched with bated breath, not knowing what was going to happen next, fire started to rise at the back of the earth, flames burning high, spreading all around it.  I was scared and didn’t know what this meant, but knew I had to keep watching as the flames engulfed the earth!

Shortly after that, as the flames started to die down, another image appeared underneath the burning earth.  This highly coloured scene showed people rejoicing, dancing, clapping.  People were happy!  And as I tried to make sense of this vision, I remembered the violet flame of transmutation and so felt that this was a sort of re-assurance, that once I’d changed my life, I would be happy.  The images disappeared, but I’ve never forgotten them!

Over the last few weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about this experience and it’s relevance to now.  At the time I thought it was just about me and my life.  Now I’m wondering if this vision was not just about preparing me for the future, but letting me know this is about all humanity.  That once we are destroyed egotistically, we are reborn into the future of our dreams!

Although hard, and though it may feel impossible at times, we have to allow ourselves to change, to fall, to rise, to grow!  We can’t do this when we are safe, so it’s okay to be afraid when faced with change, as we have to feel our fear, we have to confront our demons and let them go, because a re-birth is about to happen, and we need to be ready to step into a new human role that corrects our problems rather than causing them!

There’s talk about a miraculous ‘Second Coming’, of someone whom we could trust to lead us out of the darkness.  But if we still don’t recognise our true power of creation, this blind faith would simply lead us right back into the transformational fire we’re trying to escape from!  Following those in power is not the answer – we should know that by now, shouldn’t we? They are the ones who got us in this shit in the first place!  Now we, WE, have to motivate ourselves to stand up, take responsibility for our creative yet destructive power, and lead ourselves to a better, different life!

There is no quick, simple, panacea for doing this successfully at the moment!  I only wish it was that easy! It takes courage to not run away from our fear, and perseverance, patience to come through our bad times!  But come through them we must, and will – just like my vision all those years ago!  Where even though we can’t see the bigger picture, we must trust that a safe, loving, happy world is there, and that we will get the chance to enjoy it in this lifetime!

I know now that each experience that made me afraid has been for a reason!  I wanted to be comfortable, feel safe and content.  My soul knew otherwise though!  It had a job to do, to keep me on my toes, to allow myself to fragment, to break into small pieces that I could choose to discard during my emotional and mental recovery!  My soul has nudged me on my pathway, when I felt so abandoned and alone.  Where many times, as my stability crashed, so did I!

So when I ask myself now ‘Who am I?’, I can answer, without fear….I am Chrissie Batten, I have a soul, a will, courage, strength (although I don’t always feel it).  And I have a fragmented ego, that has lost it’s power over me, meaning I am in control of me.  Mmmm…well, that’s not totally true yet, but I’m starting to have hope that things will change!

Yes, I’ve got hope for me – no aspirations mind, or clear visions for the future. Just a little hope and trust that all is meant to be as it is, for a really good reason – to preserve human life, to have peace in our minds and heart.  To be loved and to love, and to be glad to be alive!

What about you though…regardless of how you were in the past, who are you now?  When you ask yourself ‘Who am I?’, what answers come from your heart?  What answers come from your mind?  How have you changed? Look closely through an open mind, and I’m sure you will find you’ve come a lot further than you thought!

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A Spontaneous Post!

This wasn’t the post I intended to write, but it sort of became A Spontaneous Post that surfaced within me, that needed to be released from my mind! So I’m just going with it, and allowing these words to go where they need to be, with the intention that they may help someone out there, who is struggling to understand why their life is so shit!!

Life, for many, has been a succession of failed attempts, failed relationships, jobs, ambitions, and failed, thus forgotten or rejected dreams.  We think this is our fault, when our world is so fruitless.  We think we are to blame because we’re not good enough in some way, or because we’re doing something wrong!

But what if everything that has happened to us, is how it was meant to be?

Even though our life has been reduced from the world we once knew, what if that world was meant to be shattered.  What if we were meant to be torn away from our past, and hurtled into a different world that we know nothing of, in order that we could rise like the phoenix from the ashes, into a new way of being?

Sounds stupid, ludicrous to think it’s okay to suffer as we have, lose what we’ve lost!  But what if, in the grand scheme of life, those things that meant so much to us, were actually worthless in the energetic world that we are evolving into?

We’ve all been waiting for change to come.  We wanted to feel better, more calm and less worried about how we can survive the global crisis that we can’t do anything about!  Yet even though we thought we could do nothing, believing we were impotent, the reality is that we’ve been doing all we were meant to be doing, to enable the change in our life to manifest the new world.  A world where instead of failed dreams, there is fulfilment, success, aspirations, love and good health!

I don’t know about you, but I want that world!  So how can we get it?  Where the devil is it, because we can’t see it anywhere YET…?  But time moves quickly now, and it will start to shine through very soon, giving us hope, letting us know that there really is another way to live!!

Those on a spiritual path will know that these changes have been manifesting, increasing gravity for some years now, and would have been working with the energy to make their life easier.  It hasn’t been easy though!  It has been like living in hell, struggling each day with challenges that we’d rather not face.  Where we feel our energy sapping and wonder just how much longer we can carry on like we are, as we wonder how much strength we have left, asking ourselves ’Can we survive this transition, or will we die in the process?’.

Yet even though we feel this way, we understand we are involved in a process.  A spiritual, soul, energetic process that could transform the human race as we know it!  So we know this process takes time, has different stages we have to manage and cope with, and realise that we have to find a way to manage our thoughts, our emotions, our selves, relationships and lives, in such a way, that we reduce confrontation, withholding how we feel, blaming, shaming and opting out.

We know we have to quell our increasing fear and go with the energetic flow that will set us free from our own self-restrictive nature, that has made us an easy target for those in authority, who want to exude their power and supremacy over us!

We are like lambs going to the slaughter, unless we have awareness!  As our awareness is our protective armour, that shields us from the predatory energy pull that we have to face daily, from those that profit from our fear!

So what about those who do not know about energy, evolution, earth changes etc. What happens to them?

Their soul will know about everything, and will prompt them when the time comes, to take the right action to keep themselves safe, and take them where they need to be. Although hard to remember at times, there’s no need to panic about changes that can only benefit us all.

However, we all have to understand that currently our life is governed by an ego that dictates….

The choices we make!

The actions we take!

How we manage our reactive nature!

How we perceive ourselves to be!

……But this has to change!!

So when you are faced with situations that you find hard to control, think about what would happen if you just let them pass you by!  Out of work, another failed relationship, something else lost?  If it means you will set yourself free from your fear, then let these things happen!  But instead of focussing on the worst thing that could happen, think about the best!

E.g…If I lost my job I would have more time to devote to ???!  If me and ? broke up, I would be free to find a more positive relationship?  If I lost ?, then maybe I don’t need it as much as I thought!

We cannot create a new, better world whilst we strive to stay within our comfort zone!  We have to allow ourselves to emerge beyond our fear, in order to complete our soul purpose, which is to be different than we are now!

I don’t think I feel scared anymore! Not like before anyway, where I was terrified so much of the time!  I know the world will carry on with or without me!  But I also know there has to be more to life than what we know!  There has to be a better way to live and love, rather than struggling to keep what we’ve got, and fearing loss of the things we’ve gathered in our life!

Regardless of how some are predicting catastrophes, the end of the world is NOT nigh!  But the world as we know it is going to change, and so are we!  So let’s use our mind-power to ensure that the new things that enter our existence are brought in on waves of love, not fear!  As what we have to realise is, that we are the one who determine what our future holds for us!  And if we struggle to stay as we are, nothing in our life will change!

Also, the only real price we pay for our freedom, is setting ourselves free from our fear!

It’s bonfire night, and a great, symbolic time for letting go of the past.

Here’s a simple exercise to help you release tension… 

Sit somewhere quiet, relax, close your eyes…

Simply imagine a bonfire in your mind.  See the yellow flames burning high, hear the crackling of the flames.

See the yellow flames turn to violet.  This is violet flame of transmutation.  It is the healing flame!

Mentally throw all your problems, troubles, anxiety etc., into the flames.

Watch the violet flames soar high as all the negativity is transmuted by the power of the violet flames!

Do this exercise until you feel a sense of release, relief, calmness inside.

Take a deep breath in and out. Give thanks to the violet flame for assisting you this day.

Frequently affirm that ‘All is well in my world’ to create a new neural pathway.

Our negative experiences are our training courses.  And without them we would remain inept!  And whilst there may be many standing, watching, it only takes one person who has courage and tenacity, to lead the way to change the world!

Could that person be you?

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What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!

At the beginning of this year I knew intuitively that this was going to be a testing year for us all.  I felt really strongly that 2012 would be a year when we would move where we needed to be, do what we needed to do, change what we needed to change.  A year where we would face challenges that would expose our deepest Self, as opposed to being hidden by our ego nature. And although I did feel apprehensive about what I would have to face, considering past experiences, I knew that often life takes control of our fate, and all we can do is deal with the fall-out!

Because we have to be ready for our next soul step,  facing the tribulations of change is an important factor in our preparation to find our authentic Self!  And even though I fully understand the concept behind …‘What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger’,  changing has been so much harder than I envisaged.  Where every aspect of my personality has been challenged, and I’ve had to use every technique I know, to keep myself grounded, sane and functioning!  And whereas at times I feel alone, as I isolate myself away whilst trying to cope with my experiences, I know there are so many others who, like me, are also having a tough time!

When I see others suffering, I hurt also.  I want to help them, fix them, advise them, console them.  And because of this, trying to understand why life is so painful, in order to avoid it, has been one of my hardest tasks.  As what it means is that I can’t allow myself to collapse under the weight of my thoughts and emotions any more.  I have to observe and understand myself, and find a way to console my mind, emotions and soul!   I can’t allow myself to have any more breakdowns that take so long to recover from! I have to find a way to tolerate myself and experiences!  I can’t allow myself to keep beating myself up for what I think I should have done, but haven’t! I have to be strong because I’ve ‘something’ to do!

What that something is, has caused me so many nightmares I can tell you!  Because I’ve not been able to identify an area to help within, or commit myself to anything specific, whereby I’ve put so much pressure on myself to get out there – wherever that is, to do it – whatever it is, and to teach it – whatever….you get the theme I’m sure!  I’ve learned so much, changed so much, and yet nothing seems any different!  There is still the pain, the confusion, the wondering,  and agonising thoughts that try to convince me that something bad is going to happen to me or my loved ones.  Thoughts that stimulate the battle of survival in my mind!

And whilst I try to convince myself that the world is a safe place to be, reality proves that it’s not! There’s increasing war, conflict, destructive manipulation of society, financial collusion.  I won’t go on, you already know what I know about all that!  How can we feel safe, when people in authority care for their power, supremacy, profits, but don’t care about what happens to us?  But we have to learn how to find our safety switch within ourselves, otherwise we will be forever at the mercy of people who have the power to manipulate our welfare!

Not so long ago I had a dream, where I envisaged myself teaching others, specifically children, what I had learned through my own pain.  This aim somehow gave me a reason why life has been such a hard slog! I thought that if I could share my experiences and how I’d come through them, then I could help them avoid the same painful pitfalls I’d dropped into!   I feel sad that children have to experience the pain of growing up.  The bullying, the minimisation and manipulation, the confusion caused by innocent ignorance! I wanted to tell them about their untrustworthy emotions and thoughts, and how their mind lies to them.  I wanted them to see that if they did things differently than children of the past, their life might be easier to cope with! I wanted to explain the concept of inferior/superior, where others will want us to feel small/bad, so that they can feel big/good, and how we believe them!

But something has happened to me, and I’m not quite sure what it is!

Things have been pretty intense for me during the last year, (and what feels like forever), where family responsibilities have dominated, leaving little energy left for my creative nature to express itself.  I couldn’t commit myself to anything because I’ve been, and still am on permanent standby for ‘emergencies’.

Our thoughts create our reality, and so because my thoughts have been so one-sided on family matters, I feel somehow that I’ve forgotten so many things that I knew!  And this scares me.  Am I losing my mind to dementia, or becoming ‘crazy’ again?  Years ago spiritual practice commanded ‘Live for today, in the moment’.  Well that’s where I’m living now, and it feels weird!  As I don’t plan tomorrow, I rarely think about yesterday.  It feels that life is being lived on an ad hoc basis, where it’s ‘as and when’ that dominates.  And I honestly don’t know whether this is a good or bad thing!

I know that when we’re preoccupied with worry and anxiety, our mind blocks itself to other things, because the mind can only concentrate on one thing at a time.  So if I’m worrying so much about one specific area, then my mind shuts off other less important things.  This is how we become depressed – because we can’t see the light at the end of our tunnel of darkness!  When our mind is fixed in anxiety, it’s difficult to see clarity or feel hope, optimism, excitement!

Our fear and anxiety can debilitate us in so many ways.  And although we try to avoid it, the universe has a way of thrusting it directly in our face, so we have no option other than deal with it. But each anxious moment has given me the opportunity to learn more about how I’m coping with me, my thoughts, my emotions, my attitude!  And like everyone else, instead of overcoming it, I have to learn how to live with my fear – as it’s not going to go away as easily as we’d thought!

Life still feels challenging in so many areas, but I have learned to tame my over-reactive nature to the point where I’m feeling more confident about self-management and less fearful about what’s going to happen.  Meaning, surprisingly, that even though I still feel stressed-out,  I feel better, more hopeful, inside my heart centre.

I’ve not been writing for a while because I’ve lacked mental energy, and clarity about many things.  And to be honest I reached the stage of ‘What’s the point!’.  It’s really hard for me to write about my pain, as I’m so used to dealing with it alone, in my head.  Where I weigh it all up, analyse it, understand what aspects of me are self-sabotaging, before I can move on .  But writing does help me identify and resolve problems. It pacifies my creative and helping nature, so maybe I’d better do more of it…!

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The Energy Connection!

Because spiritual influences are helping our soul evolve beyond our reactive ego personality, by encouraging us to identify, clarify, develop and live by authentic truth, we will find it harder to be consoled by our addictions and negative habits.  They won’t bring us so much satisfaction, so eventually we will get tired of being disappointed by them and seek other ways of coping with our inner stirrings. Meaning that if we make the effort to work constructively with our fear, by not making ourselves even more afraid as we deal with changes in our lives, we can break free of old habits that have kept us trapped within fear filled limitations.

And although this process can feel distressing, because we are letting go of our comforters, we have to remember it’s a positive process that’s designed energetically to set us free from our negative self, that imposes restrictions to our growth and happiness.

I hurt when I see so many people, young and old, struggling to cope with the constant bombardment of challenges being imposed upon us all. There was a time not so long ago, when we could identify with those whose life was working well.  We could console our fears by saying ‘If they can do that then so can I’.  Our young people could witness success and aspire themselves toward it. But it’s much harder to find normal people(if there are such entities any more) whose life is working well. In fact it’s becoming increasingly harder to find anyone who hasn’t got some form of struggle going on at the moment.  Meaning it’s going to feel more difficult to feel optimistic and okay about life in general, and our mood may become less buoyant!

I’m not naive enough to believe that EVERYONE is in turmoil at the moment. As I know problems are being caused by an energetic  shift, that means wealth is being redistributed away from the majority, who as a consequence struggle with financial problems and health issues caused by an overload of stress, and passed onto the minority whose lives are becoming increasingly prosperous, successful and fulfilling.  But there is money out there, enough for everyone.  So why is there such an increasing and overwhelming lack in our lives, when others have so much more than us – more than they could possibly need?  What is the purpose for this?

Well they say money goes to money, and I believe that’s true!  As there’s an energy link to money, that if connected to, will attract more money.  The problem is that fear interferes with this abundance link.  So the poorer we get, the more afraid we become, and the more we get separated from our ability to generate more money!  So, even if we are terrified of losing what we’ve got because we’ve not got enough money coming into our lives, we can, and must still have confidence in our ability to connect to the energy of financial abundance.

This means instead of focussing on what we haven’t got, which makes us more anxious, we use affirming statements such as….’I am now willing to allow money to enter my life from all sources’ or  ‘I now release the need to suffer from poverty and accept the abundance of money that is rightfully mine to receive’.  One of the most effective ways to connect to abundance energy, or disconnect from our restraining mind-sets, is to use EFT.  There are loads of scripts already out there if you Google or go to You Tube.

The main thing is not to let fear stop us from creating a better way of life for ourselves.  But if we focus on fear, we will become more afraid!  So, remember, even if you’re afraid of whatever, you can still be strong, creative and successful!

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The hero within

Sometimes when we’re struggling with our existence, and wonder ‘what it’s all about’, it helps to remember the words written in this post by Evan Sanders.

We all have a hero within us, but it’s sometimes hard to follow the epic journey that allows and encourages the hero to emerge.  Meaning if we give up too early we reduce our potentiality.

Life is meant to be filled with hurdles that help our soul personality grow.  If we avoid those challenges, or give up the search for self-improvement, we will remain fragmented, fragile, vulnerable and scared.  So we all owe it to ourselves to stay strong and steady when the ground shakes beneath our feet.  For our life, and our soul, is worth fighting for!

Day (245) – In the Arena.

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Straight From The Heart!

Thinking about my writing, I became aware that my words are coming from my mind.  Okay, so it’s not my ego mind, and is my higher mind most of the time (I hope). But today I wanted to write something directly from my heart space.  I don’t know what I’m going to write until it emerges, but let’s just go with it anyway…

I want to say that regardless of how tough things are at the moment, hang in there!

We’re going through a transitional crisis that’s likely to become more intense.  But this process is leading us to a better place in life.  One with less struggle and animosity.  Where instead of spending our time fighting ourselves and each other, we have the energy to focus on our creativity, and use it to re-create our lives for the future!

We’re not alone in this process, as we’re receiving help from the highest source of intelligence in the universe.  That work for the good of all, including mankind!

But if you give up hoping, trusting and living, just because it’s hard going at the moment, you won’t feel the consequential benefits of this transitional stage, once it completes, as it must!

I want to hold you energetically and console your pain.  I want to encourage you to believe there is more to your life than you ever believed possible.  I want to convince you to stay strong and steady, as you ride the stormy life experiences that are abounding now, caused because of energetic forces that manifest evolutionary change.

Most of all I want to help you understand that this life is not all there is.  There is so much more at our disposal, that we can use, to help ourselves find a way to cope with our pain and fear, our worry and anxiety!

We have it all inside of our energy field, inside our own mind and heart.  But we can’t access it because we’re afraid of one thing or another.  This process is about that!  It’s about helping us discard our egotistical cloak of protection that stops us feeling how we want to feel, and becoming all we could be.

As I focus on my heart centre, I can feel the energy pleading…’Please believe you can cope with the future’.  And whilst I know this is my heart communicating with me, because I’m feeling vulnerable about my life challenges.  I also know my soul wants to help others like me, who are feeling a bit wobbly at the moment, and this is why I felt compelled to write this post.

When we can’t see a positive way through our dark challenges, we believe there is no way forward, that life will always feel this bad. But we can’t see or know everything can we?  We don’t even see our own motivations most of the time, so how are we expected to be able to comprehend the mechanism of a simple, yet complicated-to-us energy force, that supports, sustains and develops  all life?  A force we try to fit in with our human understanding.  A force we try to limit, because of our inability to allow ourselves to expand and go with the flow!

So there we are!  A message from the heart that is trying to encourage the belief that all is, and will be well.  And we can cope with what life throws at us – as long as we remember that life is about learning through our mistakes!

I feel better now that I’ve released some of the repressed passion inside, that intensifies  during periods of high anxiety.  I needed to hear this reassurance from my soul!  I can’t control everything  and everyone in my life, any more than you can! But I listened to my heart today and felt consoled.  What about you though!  What is your heart saying to you today?

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