Since I’ve recently had my computer repaired, I’ve found it impossible to write anything. I offer myself various reasons – I’m tired, can’t be bothered, don’t know what to write about. Nothing seems significant enough for me to comment on….all lame excuses for my lack of creativity, which appears to be having a rest at the moment! Seems like it was more than just my computer that reached breaking point…created by enforced change!
Not only that, but instead of finding consolation, I’m finding it increasingly difficult to listen to other people’s messages of motivation. Where an uncharacteristic, common response from me is something like old Scrooge saying…BAH!…HUMBUG!…to anything he doesn’t want to deal with!
The strange thing is that I’m not really that worried about not writing at the moment… And I don’t want to listen to ‘them’ as I’ve heard it all before, no-one is telling me anything new…etc.! (No disrespect to anyone here – it’s just how I’m feeling at the moment)!
So if I’m not writing or listening to others, what AM I doing?
Well interestingly enough, I am making decisions most of the time now…which is somewhat of a surprise to me, as previously I found it difficult to make choices which meant I committed myself to anything! Of course that reluctance is linked to my inner fear, my life circumstances, and my indecision traits exaggerated because I’m a Libran (that’s my excuse anyway)! But what has happened, that made me want to over-ride my own negative traits? What made me want to change my habits of a lifetime?
I’m wondering whether my apparent intolerance to some things, is simply a way to make me focus on issues that are more important and relevant to ME – unfinished business and all that stuff….! After all, this is said to be a time for letting go of the Piscean past, that holds us back from the Aquarian future. And if we don’t change what we’re doing we will suffer the consequences of remaining stuck – and whatever they may be they will not be comfortable to experience I’m sure!
To understand this we have to take account of the current energetic changes that have taken place recently…!
There was much hype about the 21.12.12 date and how things would change. And whilst there were those who predicted doom and gloom, I think many were hoping this event would provide the ‘MIRACLE’, that would magically fix our lives, that would give us clear insight into what we should be doing, and where we should be going! I know I was hoping this energetic change would mean things would get a bit easier for us – as the past has certainly be harder to cope with than most of us expected!
Alas…change wasn’t going to be that easy…it never is, is it?
But whilst there appears to be no obvious changes in my life, if I let go of my expectations of what I would’ve liked to have happened, and look back over recent months – since 21.12.12, I can clearly see how changes in my mentality have occurred , and how I am using my power in a different way than before – as since this time I am attempting to design my actions for MY benefit, to meet MY intrinsic soul needs, rather than spreading my energy over external matters that regularly leave me feeling drained and exhausted!
I am trying to manage my own energy in a different way (this does take a bit of practice), and whereas before 21.12.12 I felt ‘stuck’, for some reason since that date I don’t. And although I’ve still not got a strong energetic pull in any particular direction to express my creativity, which still frustrates me, my heart is pulsing to speak, to share, to help and assist, wherever I am driven to do so!
However, I still have to remind myself to remember, that like everyone other human on this planet, I (or my energy) is being changed. And that I am metamorphoses in action. Where as my energy field seeks ways to adapt and adjust to new vibrational frequencies, my physical body tries to do it’s own thing to re-stabilise, whilst my mind and emotions want to freak-out because of the unknown inevitabilities we face in the forthcoming future! Phew…what an upheaval!
Yet strangely enough, whilst on some level I feel quite chaotic, in my heart centre my soul breathes love at last! IT, my restricted, trapped, higher self, feels peace because it knows the time is right to be free from my human restraint. I feel reassured that what we’ve been waiting for so long, has now started to arrive…although it still makes me nervous to know that our destination is a long way off yet…so there’s still more work we each have to do, to get where we need to be!
The journey of ego-control has been such an arduous trek, where those of us who followed our soul-guidance found hardship, challenge and intense pain, when actually we sought to find internal peace. I know as I got deeper into our ‘ascension process’ and realised what our pathway ahead looked like, I felt such utter despair at the enormous task I’d agreed to undertake. And whereas at one time I thought that cognitive correction or reframing was all that was necessary for me to reduce my fear-filled existence, I soon realised I was actually healing my energy of pain from other times, other lives, other existences, that it had encumbered since the beginning of time.
WHAT A HUGE TASK !!! – But how can we succeed in changing the way we live, to a world filled with loving and compassionate beings, when everyone and everything else had failed in the past?
But I had to trust that the universe knew what it was doing, as man certainly didn’t! I wanted to believe my channelled messages that spoke of self-healing first, before we can truly help others. Messages over the many years that tried to reassure me that my fear was my own creation, that it wasn’t real in true terms, that only love could set us free from our fear-filled belief system! As I faced my darkest demons, I wanted to trust that I was protected, and guided at all times by compassionate beings affiliated to universal God energy. I had to learn that I was multi-dimensional, and that was hard!
Many searching like me, gave up along the way. Many persevered, and have survived their self-defeating mentality. Regardless, this is a universal healing exercise – we will all be converted back to our original SELF, at some time in the future. The plan is bigger than human….and it has to happen – for our benefit!
We all like to know where we’re heading, as we can prepare ourselves. But no-one really knew what would happen on or after 21.12.12. I usually channel clear, trustworthy information most of the time that helps me understand the truth of the world, but I’ve not been able to access my sources lately, due to the over-activity of my mind. Thus, whilst I can clearly identify the TRENDS of energy that compel us to move in certain directions, I’m having to take guidance from others, who have gained access to higher wisdom that is meant to help us evolve our consciousness. This means as I gather information, I can formulate ideas about what direction we are energetically being propelled into, confirm or dispel the idea according to my levels of global and personal discernment, leaving me with a sort of clear picture of what is happening to our species!
This is what I know so far….
There was speculation that this energetic shift would bring up old issues to be healed….This I’ve found to be true, as many childhood/past life/other issues that I’ve dealt with over the years, have re-surfaced for final healing and release, where most of the time I just had to let the memory go, so to release it from my mental and emotional energy field.
I’ve heard many people saying they are physically affected by this energy shift…exhausted, spaced out, confused, disorientated, became ill where they needed to see their GP (even holistic therapists have sought help from allopathic treatments). This is our body adjusting to the new energy vibration, which will indicate any pre-existing condition that needs healing, that will limit our energetic capacity for expansion. So we need to listen to what our body is telling us now, at this time. If we feel exhausted maybe we need to rest for a while, rather than keep pushing forward toward our perceived goal.
Releasing the ego has always been a big issue for us….but if it’s our time to let it go, then it will be easier to change than to carry on as we are. Because the opposing energy will make us feel so bad we won’t want to stay as we are!
Our mind is the Creator! If we haven’t grasped it already, this will be the time when we realise without doubt, that we are the creators of our world, caused by the thoughts in our mind! Our thoughts, when linked to our emotions, have the power to manifest the content of our fear/love! Regardless of whether we realise it, or like it or not, the choice of what we manifest is ours! Be careful what you wish for….good advice at his time I’d say!
Also, it’s useful to remember….
*We are all here to help each other!
*There is no one higher than ourselves who can help our soul evolve!
*We have all the wisdom we need within our consciousness – we just have to find a way to access that information!
*There is no single miracle cure! Miracles are happening all of the time, as every minute of the day a miracle occurs somewhere, in someone’s life. You can all receive miracles at will! You just have to be clear about what you want to receive, let go of how it will happen, and trust that it will manifest at some time – but it must be for the highest good!
*No-one can harm you once you are on your soul path, because your perception of ’harm’ changes!
Humans are going through enforced change and have been doing so for many years. But we are involved in a process that is in its final stages of a particular phase, that will now affect us and our lives by pushing us out of our comfort zones! We can delay it if we choose, but we can’t escape it, as earth and it’s inhabitants are protected by powers that be, that must ensure our future survival.
So, rather than resisting change, it’s probably easier to stand steady and let the change occur around you. That way you may avoid unnecessary turbulence!
However, each of us has to work with our energy, to correct our misconceptions of life, to be accountable for our thoughts, feelings and actions! It’s our responsibility to heal our own energy, to work with our soul, our higher self, to bring us back into alignment with our true God nature!
Life becomes more comfortable once we take the emphasis off others making our life easier, and face our personal challenges with gusto! As once we start to recognise the power we do have, to transform ourselves, we may start to use it to change our world!
Have a great day everyone!