I’m sure I’m not the only person asking themselves ‘Who Am I?’ at this moment in time, where as the pressure of futility increases, due to Christmas being just around the corner, we wonder what’s happened to our life. How did we end up where we are? As regardless of how hard we’ve tried to change or how much cutting-back we’ve done, lack of money and ever-increasing bills to pay, is still causing problems for so many, including me. And although we may use relaxation and self-help techniques to help us cope with our rising stress, we are still highly stressed, because of the way we feel about us, our life, and our future!
To be honest, it feels like things will never change, and they could even get worse, as there’s no signs of improvement to global financial problems that affect each of us. And to top it all, we’ve got ascension energy pushing and shoving us into emotional and mental places we’ve tried to avoid, in order to release latent emotional energy that we’ve held on to for too long. Causing frightening physical symptoms that worry us even more!
Wowee!! … What a ride, as internal and external pressure causes havoc to our energy! And regardless of whether you believe in all of this energetic stuff or not, the pressure is still really intense!!
However, whilst our human problems appear so overwhelming to us, we should realise that our problems are not the main issue here. As planetary, energetic, and spiritual influences are affecting us also, where there is a merging of elements taking place that will create significant changes to our future. With an ultimate transformational purpose that is designed to protect us from self-destruction. Hard to believe? Yes of course it is! But how do we know it’s not true?
My guidance tells me it’s about ‘Healing the heart of man’, and that helps me to realise that change will be a good thing for us. Yet I find it incredible that this is the time when evolutionary changes manifest, that will eventually change our lives forever! So many of our ancestors have been wiped out in the past, during this process. Is this REALLY the time when we do it differently? Where we change before it’s too late! What an amazing thought that is!!
I often wonder about our future, and the world as it may be someday. It’s hard to imagine the new, prophesised world, where love and compassion are the fierce energetic prompts that guide our thoughts, feelings and actions. We’ve all been hurt so much by each other, throughout our existence, that we’ve been conditioned to accept pain as an inevitability of life. But this is not how it should be! And yet if this is all we’ve known, or remember, then how can we know how to create the necessary changes that will sustain life and happiness, instead of destroying it? But maybe this responsibility doesn’t fall just on our shoulders. Maybe there is a higher universal intelligence that can help us do what we need to do!
I’ve communicated with the Sirian High Council, the Pleidian Elders, Lemurians and Atlanteans, as well as others. I’ve also communicated with God energy, angels, guides, entities etc. But how do I know these are true and real, as they are in my mind? How do I know I’m not insane when I converse with these beings from afar? And yet their influences have helped me so much, to understand how to survive this world! So I believe there is help from these sources! And yet it doesn’t really matter whether I believe in them or not does it?
As regardless of our circumstances, and who we are, one thing is for certain. We’re already changing – we are not the people we once were. Our life is different, our ambitions are different, and our future is not the one we were planning on. So because we’ve lost the ‘old picture’ we had created in our mind, about who and what we would become, it can feel as though we’ve lost our identity, or we are dying. When the reality is that we’ve lost sight of who we are, because we, as we once were, are no more! And believe it or not, this is a good thing!
Basically what’s happened is that because we’ve had no option other than confront or control our rising fear, caused because of external to us circumstances, we have broken through the protective barrier that the ego had created. Which kept us isolated, small, defensive and afraid. We were reactive to a lot of things, but now we know, from our futile experiences of over-reacting, that when the tables are turned against us, we should and can stand steady and strong. Knowing that in time, somehow, we will find the answers we need, the strength we lack, and the motivation to move ourselves beyond our stuck points, to a more comfortable life position. In other words, instead of running with our fear, we learn to trust that we can help ourselves in better ways!
It’s common knowledge that the Mayan calendar ends soon, which because of our linear thinking leaves us fearing the worst. But now, because something is ending and we can’t see the beginning of anything new, we get anxious, feel vulnerable and start to panic about what’s going to happen to us and our world! There are those who foretell disasters, doom and gloom – even the end of the world! But I don’t believe any of that, although the world as we know it will undoubtedly change, which could be symbolised as an ending. Not before time I would add, as I know there has to be a better way to live our life, than the way most of us live now, where we struggle to survive against the turning tides of those in power, who have brought us to our knees.
But guess what! We are stronger than they think! We are braver than they anticipated! And our heart and soul is getting ready to challenge those who want to keep us frozen in fear! We want our life back, we want to be free not only from our anxiety and worry, and politics that squeeze the breath out of us. But mostly we want to be free from our own fear, because we now know that this is the thing that upsets us the most. And because we are human, we will make it happen eventually, now that we are starting to accept that we have the power to change how we feel – at will! (This is true by the way!).
Many foretell of a new energy reaching earth, that will take us on to a different dimensional level of being. Which as a consequence of existing within a higher vibration, will enable us to become more intuitive. We will be able to see the truth of life, and value what really matters. There are many thousands, if not millions of people who have already reached this level, because they’ve spent their time developing their Selves, pursuing peace instead of conflict, freedom instead of control! But there’s many more who still have work to do in this area, if they want their life to improve! Where the choice at the moment is ours – live in fear, or find a way to manage and disperse any fearful prompts that disrupt our energetic balance.
When we’re afraid, we look for solutions to our problems and often fail to recognise that life is becoming a prison of misery. As when we feel deprived of what we need, over a long period of time, we can end up believing we don’t deserve anything other than what we’ve got. We lose our confidence, our drive to succeed, our dreams and aspirations! And we forget who we are, as we believe we are nothing! Our energy is low, we lack enthusiasm, we get depressed, angry and upset, because we lose hope that things will ever change for us!
If what I’m describing seems familiar to you, then I know you have suffered like I have! I’ve tried for many years to work out the best way to live, to survive financial, emotional and mental crisis! I’ve also had quite a few traumatic spiritual experiences as well, but that story can wait for another day, for now! The point is our suffering was not for nothing! It was all about the energetic transformation process that is happening now!
About nine years ago, whilst I was laying in bed one night, I saw an image of the earth in my room, in front of my window. Regardless of whether my eyes were closed or open, the green and mauve image remained. I wondered if I was dreaming or becoming psychotic, and so pinched myself, stood up and went out of the room, returned and sat on the bed. The image was still there! As I watched with bated breath, not knowing what was going to happen next, fire started to rise at the back of the earth, flames burning high, spreading all around it. I was scared and didn’t know what this meant, but knew I had to keep watching as the flames engulfed the earth!
Shortly after that, as the flames started to die down, another image appeared underneath the burning earth. This highly coloured scene showed people rejoicing, dancing, clapping. People were happy! And as I tried to make sense of this vision, I remembered the violet flame of transmutation and so felt that this was a sort of re-assurance, that once I’d changed my life, I would be happy. The images disappeared, but I’ve never forgotten them!
Over the last few weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about this experience and it’s relevance to now. At the time I thought it was just about me and my life. Now I’m wondering if this vision was not just about preparing me for the future, but letting me know this is about all humanity. That once we are destroyed egotistically, we are reborn into the future of our dreams!
Although hard, and though it may feel impossible at times, we have to allow ourselves to change, to fall, to rise, to grow! We can’t do this when we are safe, so it’s okay to be afraid when faced with change, as we have to feel our fear, we have to confront our demons and let them go, because a re-birth is about to happen, and we need to be ready to step into a new human role that corrects our problems rather than causing them!
There’s talk about a miraculous ‘Second Coming’, of someone whom we could trust to lead us out of the darkness. But if we still don’t recognise our true power of creation, this blind faith would simply lead us right back into the transformational fire we’re trying to escape from! Following those in power is not the answer – we should know that by now, shouldn’t we? They are the ones who got us in this shit in the first place! Now we, WE, have to motivate ourselves to stand up, take responsibility for our creative yet destructive power, and lead ourselves to a better, different life!
There is no quick, simple, panacea for doing this successfully at the moment! I only wish it was that easy! It takes courage to not run away from our fear, and perseverance, patience to come through our bad times! But come through them we must, and will – just like my vision all those years ago! Where even though we can’t see the bigger picture, we must trust that a safe, loving, happy world is there, and that we will get the chance to enjoy it in this lifetime!
I know now that each experience that made me afraid has been for a reason! I wanted to be comfortable, feel safe and content. My soul knew otherwise though! It had a job to do, to keep me on my toes, to allow myself to fragment, to break into small pieces that I could choose to discard during my emotional and mental recovery! My soul has nudged me on my pathway, when I felt so abandoned and alone. Where many times, as my stability crashed, so did I!
So when I ask myself now ‘Who am I?’, I can answer, without fear….I am Chrissie Batten, I have a soul, a will, courage, strength (although I don’t always feel it). And I have a fragmented ego, that has lost it’s power over me, meaning I am in control of me. Mmmm…well, that’s not totally true yet, but I’m starting to have hope that things will change!
Yes, I’ve got hope for me – no aspirations mind, or clear visions for the future. Just a little hope and trust that all is meant to be as it is, for a really good reason – to preserve human life, to have peace in our minds and heart. To be loved and to love, and to be glad to be alive!
What about you though…regardless of how you were in the past, who are you now? When you ask yourself ‘Who am I?’, what answers come from your heart? What answers come from your mind? How have you changed? Look closely through an open mind, and I’m sure you will find you’ve come a lot further than you thought!