Just after I published my previous post about breakdown, someone asked me to clarify the statement included below, so that is what this article today will be about. I would state beforehand, that I’m not writing as an expert on spiritual matters. What I am doing is briefly relating what I’ve learned because of what happened to me….
“….Another cause of breakdown is when we seek entry into the spiritual realms, where our vulnerable consciousness is unprepared for the force of negative energy that we expose ourselves to, when we open our mind to the unknown spiritual forces that exist”….
I felt disillusioned that spirit was not all about love and light, as I’d believed. As my experiences showed a side of spirit I thought only existed in horror movies! I won’t be describing those here. Only pointing out that once we start working with higher dimensions and higher consciousness, and enter into unknown spiritual realms that contain more species, good and bad, than we could possibly envisage, we can be propelled into mental experiences we are unprepared for!
Spirituality has many illogical aspects to it. Such as miracles that happen, spiritual beings that manifest to warn, help or heal us. Even the fact we can communicate with dead people and entities, can be classed as unbelievable by those who doubt. I’m not saying it’s wrong to doubt anything, as discernment is our saviour. But humans are a composite form of mental, emotional, physical and spiritual energy. Yet whilst we accept all other aspects, there is suspicion about our spiritual nature. But why must it still be like this, when our spiritual nature can provide so much assistance to help us cope with physical life!
We can’t see our thoughts or painful emotions, yet we know they are real because we experience them, even if we don’t fully understand, accept or validate them. This is what it’s like when we communicate with the spiritual world. We transmit and translate through our higher mind. So I guess this is the problem… communication is conducted intuitively through the mind, so has to be channelled, interpreted and passed on to others by the receiver. So if we can’t see or hear what they do, how do we know they are telling the truth?
Charlatans are eager to take our money, and mediumship provides an easy way to do this because it’s individualistic, un-provable nature, can fool many. So we have to be selective about where we place our trust regarding these matters. But what happens when we seek spiritual truth through our own higher mind. And make contact with discarnate people, entities, angels, monsters etc., whose images fill our enquiring, yet fearful mind, stimulating fearful egotistical thoughts because we can’t seem to control what we see or think. How do we decide what is true, what is real or imaginary? Because images extend beyond the logical parameters of tangibility, stimulating our fear responses, how do we know whether we are imagining these things, really communicating with higher intelligence, having a mental breakdown or simply going insane?
Our logical mind determines our truth and reality. So if something doesn’t meet our criteria for being real, we question its existence. Often relying on views of other people to determine the validity of what we’ve seen, regardless of our feelings about it. Because of ego influences, we often find it difficult to admit we’re wrong or different from others. If others are unable to validate what we perceive, we may then go on to judge our perception as wrong, or visions imaginary, even if they’re not. So there are those who hear, see or sense the spiritual world, but deny it because no-one else can see what they do. This can lead the individual to believe they are hallucinating, terrorising them into the world of mental illness and all that it contains. Whereas if their visions could be validated and accepted, they could find a way to work logically with them.
Once we start crying out to God for help, soul-searching, meditating, contacting our guides, channelling information etc., we open our mind beyond our logical parameters, and enter a dimensional reality that has different rules to the physical world. We make contact with spiritual beings and higher dimensions through our higher consciousness. We open our senses and our mind! We hear with our internal ears, we see through our inner eyes, and every physical sense is activated, as we prepare to feel any communication that proves we are being heard. Some people don’t see, but sense through the way they physically feel. Others can hear. Some people can see, hear and sense. Whatever, the communication is conducted through the persons own mind, where most of the time no-one else sees the same images, hears the same voices or feels exactly the same, for the same reasons.
There are different ways we prove that communication is real. A touch, a sound, a feeling. So when we do find a way to ‘make contact’, and get proof that someone or something on the other side is responding, we naturally want to communicate more. So we reduce our protective nature, and allow our energy to become more sensitive. We open our mind and senses more, so we can gain access to more on other dimensions! Where eventually, if we’re not careful, we start to feel ‘elation’ that we’re living in both worlds, thus without an anchor to keep us steady.
This is when we become most vulnerable, because we’re dealing with the unknown spiritual world, but allowed our logical mentality, which keeps us protected, to subside! The problem is that not all beings on other dimensions are friendly and nice. As some of them are distressed, angry or just plain psychopathic. For some reason their soul has remained afloat after their physical departure, and although in the world of spirit, they’ve not received the healing they need, so still retain their physical personality and emotional defects. We believe, we trust, we fear! Thus, because we’ve opened our energy to the spiritual world, we’re like victims of slimy-handed pickpockets in a crowded market place, leaving our valuables on display to be stolen.
When working with higher consciousness, we have to learn that images are real on that level. That’s why visualisation therapy is so helpful – its reality enables us to create change, and expands our ability to manifest. But as we’re still working through our conscious mind, our egotistical fear, and unconscious mind are still in play. Where as we explore higher dimensions, visions in the spiritual world can stimulate ego prompts that evoke fearful images and concepts from the conscious and unconscious mind, that become mingled together. Meaning we have to understand that whilst visions in our mind may not be totally real, there are some elements that are, so we have to work out true reality!
Many people have been helped and reassured by spirit communication. And although I’ve been helped so much over the years by loving guides, I didn’t understand the rules of energetic world that connects everything to everything else. Most mediums I know have no real problems with the spiritual world. And I honestly don’t know why I’ve had such a hard time. I used protective techniques, I called upon my guides and God for help. I did what I thought I had to do, in order to stop attracting negative energy and entities toward me. I pray things are different now though, as whilst I feel compassion for lost souls who linger out there, my sanity is more important to me. So whereas before I’d disregard how I felt and put their welfare first, by working with them to my detriment, if helping means compromising my energy, I will put myself first and run for safety!
I think it’s probably a good time to relate one experience here, which happened to me nearly twenty years ago. And regardless of whether you choose to believe it, I can assure you that although I was depressed, I was not psychotic. I was awake, it was not a dream or vision, but a real, tangible happening, that for some reason was to become just one of many that I had to learn to deal with and understand…
Laying in bed one night, feeling terribly depressed, just like many other nights I called out to God, begging… ‘Please help me. Tell me who my guides are so I can call on them to help me. Dear God, help me feel better!’. Suddenly from just above me, to the right, I heard a ‘Whoosh’ sound, and saw a large hand emerge out of nowhere. As the hand opened in the darkness of the room, I saw that it held a large white egg in its palm. Though stunned, I felt elated! God had finally heard my cries of despair and was giving me a gift. I reached out my hand and took the egg that was being offered to me. I could feel its shell, but when I examined it more closely I saw two large holes in it. The hand and the egg disappeared. But as I lay contemplating this miraculous manifestation, I felt disappointed about the broken egg! ‘Why was it broken?’ I wondered, as I lay in bed, trying to come to terms with what I’d just experienced. I pinched myself to make sure I was awake, and looked around the room to make sure I was still where I should be. Suddenly I felt something touching my breasts. As I looked down in disbelief I could see and feel my flesh moving underneath my nightdress, as though hands were groping me. But there was no other human in the room! As the groping became more intense I tried to move but couldn’t. I didn’t know what to do, as I didn’t know what the hands would do to me next, and in sheer terror I screamed out loudly ‘Fuck off…leave me alone’, repeating it a few times before the groping finally stopped. I didn’t sleep for a week after that!
Seems far-fetched doesn’t it. Regardless, this happened to me! I didn’t imagine it happened!
We live according to human rules, which we ignore or deviate from if we choose. But when we enter into higher consciousness, there are strict energetic, universal laws that come into play, that will never change, regardless of how much we try to prise them one way or another. The law of attraction dictates that like attract like, so needy people who seek solace through the spiritual world, will attract needy spiritual beings on other dimensions. If you are angry, depressed, proud or whatever, when channelling you will most certainly draw spirits toward you that match your agenda. This is no accident, as dealing with the troubled spirit allows healing and learning for both parties, according to the law of reaction which states ‘What you give you get!’.
When we do make contact with a spirit, and it tells us things, we should remember not to trust them until we get to know them better, and have proven their help is actually helpful to us. As whilst there are beautiful guides available to help us, the spiritual world contains both light and dark entities, just like good and bad humans on earth. Meaning there are some dark spirits out there who want to con us, because they want something from us. Namely our energy! Because when they can nestle like a parasite into our energy field, they can survive using our power. Where eventually as they become stronger, they try to overtake our personality and live our life as their own.
You may think your guides will help, the angels will protect you. But are you sure your guides are working for the highest good? And are you experiencing your own feelings – or are you picking up on the feelings of an earthbound entity that has attached itself to you, because you’re feeling as bad as it, where like attracts like!
It’s a wonderful experience when we make contact with the energy of an angel, or higher spiritual guide. Their sublime energy embraces you as you feel the warmth of their touch, or sense their presence, or hear their words of comfort in your mind. But it’s a different matter when you are touched by a dark entity, whose craftiness and despairing need clings on to your energy, sapping your strength and will. The problem is, if you are already over-burdened, you may not even recognise the deepening depression, the extra-anxiety, the intensifying feelings of heaviness on your shoulders. You may think it’s just you!
If ever I’m in doubt, I close my eyes, put my attention to my mind, and say this out loud three times…
‘I ask my higher guides to remove all negative energy/entities from my energy system’.
I then try to sense energy rising upwards, from my body, leaving through the top of my head. Try it whenever you feel low, see what you think!
We can choose to develop our sensitivity to such a level that we can feel other people’s pain. We can hear their thoughts before they acknowledge them, we can sense what they are feeling and why, before even they are aware. This is what happened to me a few years ago, where after working so hard to make myself more sensitive, my need for sanity meant I had to learn how to desensitize myself, because it didn’t feel good in any way. Opening our mind to higher consciousness means we’re able to see the truth of the world. But we’re not used to this level of honesty and clarity, so as we try to make sense of our experiences, it can freak us out!
There are many who dismiss clairvoyance as ‘just imagination’, refusing to accept there is a spiritual reality at all. Simply because they cannot see, hear of feel what the medium can. It’s for this reason that psychics have been classified as fraudulent, psychotic, insane, or simply having a vivid imagination. But I am genuine and my experiences felt very real! Such as messages that proved correct, guidance that helped me and others. Extraterrestrials who gave information about the birth of mankind and its development. It also felt very real when I was sitting having a cup of tea one morning, when a native American guide manifested unexpectedly in front of me. That was a total surprise I can tell you! But these are the good things.
The bad elements also felt very real. The aliens exiting from open vortices into our world, the hideous soul energy of murderers who still believe they have the right to harm others, the terrible pain of discarnate souls who committed suicide to find some peace, but are still earthbound. The terror that rose in me during times I realised entities had firmly attached to me, that could drive me to the brink of insanity. The worst of these times happened in 1987, 1996 and 2006. Where the struggle to regain my personality after breakdown, felt very real I can assure you!
My experiences have proven the spiritual world is real to those who have opened their mind, consciousness and heart. Images we see through our mind can be real or imagined – this is the predicament. How do we know truth? I tried to conduct my spiritual behaviour according to my egotistical nature and its rules. But it doesn’t work like that in the spiritual world! My energy was weak because I lacked self-confidence. I wanted to help them, but fear was so deeply ingrained within my personality that I made myself a target.
I hate it that I’ve had to experience the dark side of spirit. I don’t feel a victim, as I know that whatever has occurred was for a valid reason. But when we lack experience, and are being fed energetically harmful information, our logical mind and physical personality can implode. Causing enormous overwhelm to our sanity, because we find it difficult to work out what is real and what isn’t any more! Leading us to fear, with increasing terror, that we are losing our sanity, because we cannot control or stop the dark images, thoughts and feelings, that we have unwittingly welcomed into our personal energetic world!
I would clarify at this point that there are those who suffer mental health problems, for a variety of reasons, who are delusional and claim to have spiritual visitations. Where it’s vital they receive appropriate expert help. And I accept that sometimes it’s difficult to determine if a person is unbalanced, authentically channelling information or just cold reading (as the experts call it). My concern is, our soul energy is awakening to the call of natural evolution. Meaning we will all become more intuitive in the not too distant future.
But what will happen when your mind opens to other dimensions. If you doubt spiritual reality, will you automatically assume the person who receives channelled guidance to be delusional, including you? Because if so, you could hold yourself back by denying the crucial help you need! Or will you throw yourself in at the deep end, and just believe whatever you are told by beings you deem as having higher intelligence, when they have not?
This is the predicament mentioned earlier! We live adult life according to what we were told as children. We believed what we were told, even if it wasn’t true, because regardless, we thought ‘they’ knew better than us. This is the same when we start to channel. We believe spirit is good because that is what we’ve been told. We create new beliefs around our mediumship, and experience a new sense of power that we have another world at our disposal! It can make us feel very powerful, elated, in control, all-knowing and seeing. It can also destroy our lives unless we close our mind, reject the images and allow our consciousness to come back to physical earth. Then, next time we start communicating with other dimensions, once we’ve recovered our lucidity and trust we are sane, we will remain in control of our mind, take it more slowly and not believe every spirit is good, or knows best.
So we have to make up our own mind about what to believe, when we catch sight of dead people, angels, our guides and other entities. And decipher whether our imagination is just running away with what we think we should be seeing, or even what we’re most afraid of seeing. But maybe we need help to do just that! What are your thoughts?
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