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For those of you who are unaware, our energy is changing! We are evolving energetically, so that we humans can continue to exist within the universal higher dimensional frequencies of energy, that are changing the earth and all that it contains.

For those of you that are interested in energy, you will already know about the changes that are being cultivated within our solar system, that will affect our consciousness; which in turn will create changes to us physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, as our consciousness changes and develops.

There are so many people giving their reports, ideas, channeled information etc., about what is happening now, I don’t feel it necessary to speculate further, as I don’t think I could add anything at this stage, seeing as I don’t fully understand the mechanical process.  But if you’re not familiar with current evolutionary energy changes, there’s plenty of information to be found on the internet, which may help you understand why so many of us are facing significant life changes, and feeling screwed up at the moment.

I suppose we could categorise those who are aware, and those who aren’t.  As those who are aware will recognise and understand the disruptive forces that influence their lives, personality, thoughts and feelings, and work energetically with them…whilst those who are unaware, may blame the bad way they feel on external forces, physical illness or mental/emotional instability.

Awareness is the key I guess…!

So, energetic changes are in force that are affecting everything about us!  Yet whilst we may think we don’t really comprehend the enormity of this process, our soul is geared up and ready to be set free, to live within an energy where it can breathe, expand, and just be…!

It…understands it all, as it has been waiting for this time to come! This is a wonderful thing to know isn’t it…?

There are many people who neglect their soul prompts – in fact they deny they have a soul…believing that if you can’t see it then it doesn’t exist!  But we all have a soul… a beautiful spiritual centre that is all-wise and all-knowing.  If only we could all embrace our soul…and each others…, life would be so much better!

All of us on this earth today have souls that are aware of the current changes we are facing.  And although we’re all on different pathways, and different levels of consciousness and understanding, we are all changing and evolving energetically, one way or another!  These changes are forcing us to think differently, to change our value system, to correct our inappropriate coping skills.  In fact, the changes are making life very difficult for us…because we’re being dragged out of our historical comfort zone.

All of us are – even you…and it hurts because it is scary…!

But whilst we struggle to stay emotionally intact, as we flounder within the disruption, we have to remember that the aim of these energetic prompts is to encourage us to become different – the aim is to change, not to get over whatever, return to how we was, and remain the same!  So we have to allow ourselves to grow! To be different! To think about life using a different, wider perspective!

Energy changes will eventually change us on all levels.  But if we resist by striving to remain as we were, life will feel increasingly uncomfortable.  So it’s better if we can go…with…the…flow…! That means that when we feel the impact of our fear, instead of running with our automatic fight or flight prompts that make us panic, react or hide away, we breathe deeply, calm ourselves down, and reassure ourselves that life goes on – even though we don’t fully understand how.

Then, once we relax into our personal changes – without fearing them, and we’ve allowed ourselves freedom from our ego limitations, our mind and consciousness will start to open up to the new possibilities that lie before us… Meaning we may start to remember who we really are and what we really know.

AND I KNOW…REALLY TRULY, DEEP DOWN KNOW, THAT WE KNOW SO MUCH MORE THAN WE THINK WE DO…!

Access to the ancient unconscious is slow because it has been so deeply buried.  But we are changing aren’t we?…Becoming free from constraints that have kept us believing we are a mere human with limited powers.  Soon though, we will start to remember the truth…!

I want to write more, but my mind is reluctant to allow information to flow at the moment.  This is okay – it’s been a challenging few weeks and my mind is tired, where I’ve been trying to ‘work it all out’…!  It’s part of the process, so I can relax with it – even though it’s frustrating when my creativity gets blocked.  However, I know it will eventually pass.  Until then, for now, this is all I have to offer you today…!

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I’m re-posting my article about Human Evolution, because it’s so connected to changes around December 21st!

Human Evolution.

And whilst it’s natural to feel afraid, because of the fear-generated stories that we’ve been fed about this date, we have to remember that the major changes are being caused by astrological events, that will in turn gradually affect us – just like solar and lunar power does.  So really, there is nothing to fear, except fear itself!

More about this astrology can be found here……

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=hlfYHAV1i8w

Although it’s a long film, it does give lots of useful insight into what’s actually happening to us!  And reinforces the idea that our real power lies in the way we use our mind, to create our life and who we are!

Although I’ve severly doubted myself and my intuitive knowledge over the years, I can’t help but recognise things being said now, that I was told nearly twenty years ago!  So I often wonder what my life would have been like if I had trusted this inner knowledge, and the source of the information that came from beyond this world, and developed my world around it!

Mmm.  Too late for regrets now eh!

However, I’m not so quick to doubt myself nowadays, thank goodness!  So let’s hope I follow my guidance in the future, instead of believing my fear mind that was telling me I wasn’t good enough for…..everything!!  You get the gist I’m sure!

So, hopefully, you won’t make the same mistakes I did!

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This wasn’t the post I intended to write, but it sort of became A Spontaneous Post that surfaced within me, that needed to be released from my mind! So I’m just going with it, and allowing these words to go where they need to be, with the intention that they may help someone out there, who is struggling to understand why their life is so shit!!

Life, for many, has been a succession of failed attempts, failed relationships, jobs, ambitions, and failed, thus forgotten or rejected dreams.  We think this is our fault, when our world is so fruitless.  We think we are to blame because we’re not good enough in some way, or because we’re doing something wrong!

But what if everything that has happened to us, is how it was meant to be?

Even though our life has been reduced from the world we once knew, what if that world was meant to be shattered.  What if we were meant to be torn away from our past, and hurtled into a different world that we know nothing of, in order that we could rise like the phoenix from the ashes, into a new way of being?

Sounds stupid, ludicrous to think it’s okay to suffer as we have, lose what we’ve lost!  But what if, in the grand scheme of life, those things that meant so much to us, were actually worthless in the energetic world that we are evolving into?

We’ve all been waiting for change to come.  We wanted to feel better, more calm and less worried about how we can survive the global crisis that we can’t do anything about!  Yet even though we thought we could do nothing, believing we were impotent, the reality is that we’ve been doing all we were meant to be doing, to enable the change in our life to manifest the new world.  A world where instead of failed dreams, there is fulfilment, success, aspirations, love and good health!

I don’t know about you, but I want that world!  So how can we get it?  Where the devil is it, because we can’t see it anywhere YET…?  But time moves quickly now, and it will start to shine through very soon, giving us hope, letting us know that there really is another way to live!!

Those on a spiritual path will know that these changes have been manifesting, increasing gravity for some years now, and would have been working with the energy to make their life easier.  It hasn’t been easy though!  It has been like living in hell, struggling each day with challenges that we’d rather not face.  Where we feel our energy sapping and wonder just how much longer we can carry on like we are, as we wonder how much strength we have left, asking ourselves ‘Can we survive this transition, or will we die in the process?’.

Yet even though we feel this way, we understand we are involved in a process.  A spiritual, soul, energetic process that could transform the human race as we know it!  So we know this process takes time, has different stages we have to manage and cope with, and realise that we have to find a way to manage our thoughts, our emotions, our selves, relationships and lives, in such a way, that we reduce confrontation, withholding how we feel, blaming, shaming and opting out.

We know we have to quell our increasing fear and go with the energetic flow that will set us free from our own self-restrictive nature, that has made us an easy target for those in authority, who want to exude their power and supremacy over us!

We are like lambs going to the slaughter, unless we have awareness!  As our awareness is our protective armour, that shields us from the predatory energy pull that we have to face daily, from those that profit from our fear!

So what about those who do not know about energy, evolution, earth changes etc. What happens to them?

Their soul will know about everything, and will prompt them when the time comes, to take the right action to keep themselves safe, and take them where they need to be. Although hard to remember at times, there’s no need to panic about changes that can only benefit us all.

However, we all have to understand that currently our life is governed by an ego that dictates….

The choices we make!

The actions we take!

How we manage our reactive nature!

How we perceive ourselves to be!

……But this has to change!!

So when you are faced with situations that you find hard to control, think about what would happen if you just let them pass you by!  Out of work, another failed relationship, something else lost?  If it means you will set yourself free from your fear, then let these things happen!  But instead of focussing on the worst thing that could happen, think about the best!

E.g…If I lost my job I would have more time to devote to ???!  If me and ? broke up, I would be free to find a more positive relationship?  If I lost ?, then maybe I don’t need it as much as I thought!

We cannot create a new, better world whilst we strive to stay within our comfort zone!  We have to allow ourselves to emerge beyond our fear, in order to complete our soul purpose, which is to be different than we are now!

I don’t think I feel scared anymore! Not like before anyway, where I was terrified so much of the time!  I know the world will carry on with or without me!  But I also know there has to be more to life than what we know!  There has to be a better way to live and love, rather than struggling to keep what we’ve got, and fearing loss of the things we’ve gathered in our life!

Regardless of how some are predicting catastrophes, the end of the world is NOT nigh!  But the world as we know it is going to change, and so are we!  So let’s use our mind-power to ensure that the new things that enter our existence are brought in on waves of love, not fear!  As what we have to realise is, that we are the one who determine what our future holds for us!  And if we struggle to stay as we are, nothing in our life will change!

Also, the only real price we pay for our freedom, is setting ourselves free from our fear!

It’s bonfire night, and a great, symbolic time for letting go of the past.

Here’s a simple exercise to help you release tension… 

Sit somewhere quiet, relax, close your eyes…

Simply imagine a bonfire in your mind.  See the yellow flames burning high, hear the crackling of the flames.

See the yellow flames turn to violet.  This is violet flame of transmutation.  It is the healing flame!

Mentally throw all your problems, troubles, anxiety etc., into the flames.

Watch the violet flames soar high as all the negativity is transmuted by the power of the violet flames!

Do this exercise until you feel a sense of release, relief, calmness inside.

Take a deep breath in and out. Give thanks to the violet flame for assisting you this day.

Frequently affirm that ‘All is well in my world’ to create a new neural pathway.

Our negative experiences are our training courses.  And without them we would remain inept!  And whilst there may be many standing, watching, it only takes one person who has courage and tenacity, to lead the way to change the world!

Could that person be you?

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Meditation is a great tool for helping us relax, find peace in our mind and hearts, and transcend the physical world.  However, there are many different ways to use meditation, and many different meditative states. But how can we meditate when we feel so anxious?

If we’re just starting out it helps if we can identify how we can use meditation to meet our current needs!  So this article is for those who suffer from anxiety, and don’t know how to best use meditation therapeutically.

When we suffer from anxiety, because our fear-based mind processing controls our future, our mind can feel like it is in control of us!  The blend of anxious thoughts perpetuate anxious emotions, which can propel our fear-based fight and flight response, which activates even more fear and anxiety thoughts.  This process then becomes habitual, where it feels as though our life is lived on a roller-coaster of high/low anxiety states, that overtake our creativity, and often leaves us exhausted.

It is this exhaustion that can be most helped by using meditation to calm our thoughts.  But if you’ve never attempted meditation before, or failed to be able to use it with good results in the past, then rather than giving it up as a bad job, it may help to understand how to best work with meditation, whilst we are anxious.

Step 1 – Why Meditate?

The first step for anxiety meditation is to understand why you are doing it!  So, if you are overwhelmed by anxiety, the reason you would use meditation would be to calm your mind.  But if you’ve got loads of anxious thoughts entangled in your mind, how can you feel calm?  So you need to understand what happens when we meditate, when we are highly anxious.

Step 2 – Understanding The Process!

When we are anxious, our mind is filled with ever-increasing, provoking, reactive thoughts, that stimulate our reactive behaviour – whatever that may be. Including anything we use to make ourselves feel better, that helps our attention escape from our mind, emotions and problems.  However, if you’re sitting quietly, trying not to think anxious thoughts, the first thing that will happen is that a flood of anxious thoughts will automatically and naturally rise, and fill the empty space that has just appeared in your mind.  This is simply your mind feeding your habitual anxiety thinking, and is nothing to be alarmed about. Although distressing, it is still a process, that we can learn to manage, that will make life so much easier! We just have to learn how to become the observer of our own energy!

Step 3 – Watching The Energy Release!

So, whilst you are sitting quietly, and the anxious thoughts have started to pour into your mind, instead of catching the thoughts, thinking about and analysing them, thus feeding the habit which will increase your anxiety, there is something else you can do with them! As however distressing the thoughts may be, when you recognise that internal pressure created from the thoughts in your mind is just ENERGY, you have the power to release it, and thus feel less anxious and exhausted!

This energy release is accomplished by using the space that meditation provides, to facilitate our ability to conceptualise  energy in a tangible form, which we can consciously and deliberately manipulate to best suit our needs, by the use of visualisation.

If you doubt your ability to visualise, imagine this now… See yourself holding  a couple of red balloons on a long string.  Are they large, small? See them bounce in the breeze.  Then let them go, as you watch the balloons drift away in the sky!  Anyone can visualise – as whilst you may not actually see through your eyes, you just have to allow yourself to imagine in your mind’s eye!  You do it all the time – that’s why you get so anxious!  You believe what you think is real – so use this approach when working with energy!

There are a couple of methods I find really helpful, which involve using visualisation.  Here is one of them….

Method 1

*Whilst we can work this way with any part of our body, this example is based on the pressure in our mind.

Feel the tension in your head (or any other part of your body). Imagine the bombardment of thoughts in your mind as an energy form, say something like a grey or black cloud.

You have the intention of releasing this energy, so keep your focus on the cloud – not on the contents of your thoughts.

As you see the cloud of anxious thoughts in your mind’s eye, see it as a stream of energy that has a beginning and end, rather than a cloud shape.   Although you may be able to see the wispy beginning of the stream, you probably won’t be able to see the end yet – it will be too dense!

The beginning of this energy needs to find the nearest exit point, to be able to leave your energy system.  This can be through your mouth or through the top of your head – the crown chakra point, or other chakra points.  Identify which exit route your dark energy naturally flows toward, then mentally watch as the stream of dark energy starts to move away from your mind, through the exit point, out into the universe where it can be transmuted and healed. If you have problems identifying an exit point, simply direct the energy to the top of your head and use that one!

As you sit quietly, acknowledge the increasing anxiety thoughts that rise, keeping your focus and attention on the stream of dark energy exiting your mind, watching it flow, slowly, quickly, until the river of dark energy comes to an end. Where as the end of the river disappears from view, you know by the way you feel that the healing has been completed for that time.  If more anxious thoughts start to rise, repeat the process of anxious energy release.

How Much Time Will It Take?

You can choose to allow a specific amount of time to work with your energy, or give it as much time as it needs to be released from your system.  It can take just a few minutes to bring enormous relief, once we’ve developed the ability to focus our mind clearly and explicitly! However, when I first devised this method of working, it wasn’t uncommon for me to sit for a couple of hours, as I learned how to work with my energy, and feel the benefit of negative energy release. Until gradually, instead of using meditation for anxiety release, I was able to insert another purpose, governed by my needs at the time. Always remember though – you are in control of it!!

Warning!

Meditation practice involves allowing our mind (or consciousness) to roam free.  However, when anxious, depressed, paranoid, or in any other heightened state of emotion, it’s not a good idea to expose ourself by jumping in at the deep end this way, whilst we’re working with spiritual or universal  energy.  Maintaining focus on our intent, by using visualisation, helps keep us on track to self-healing, and keeps us safe.

To increase our protection, it’s also wise to image ourselves wrapped in white energy, whilst working with the unfamiliar aspects of universal consciousness.

Meditation is a wonderful tool, that serves so many purposes.  So when we ask ‘How Can We Meditate When We Feel So Anxious?’ if we remember to start slowly, with the purpose of releasing toxic energy from our energy system, we can gently learn how to allow ourselves to find the peace and tranquility we yearn for.

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Thinking about my writing, I became aware that my words are coming from my mind.  Okay, so it’s not my ego mind, and is my higher mind most of the time (I hope). But today I wanted to write something directly from my heart space.  I don’t know what I’m going to write until it emerges, but let’s just go with it anyway…

I want to say that regardless of how tough things are at the moment, hang in there!

We’re going through a transitional crisis that’s likely to become more intense.  But this process is leading us to a better place in life.  One with less struggle and animosity.  Where instead of spending our time fighting ourselves and each other, we have the energy to focus on our creativity, and use it to re-create our lives for the future!

We’re not alone in this process, as we’re receiving help from the highest source of intelligence in the universe.  That work for the good of all, including mankind!

But if you give up hoping, trusting and living, just because it’s hard going at the moment, you won’t feel the consequential benefits of this transitional stage, once it completes, as it must!

I want to hold you energetically and console your pain.  I want to encourage you to believe there is more to your life than you ever believed possible.  I want to convince you to stay strong and steady, as you ride the stormy life experiences that are abounding now, caused because of energetic forces that manifest evolutionary change.

Most of all I want to help you understand that this life is not all there is.  There is so much more at our disposal, that we can use, to help ourselves find a way to cope with our pain and fear, our worry and anxiety!

We have it all inside of our energy field, inside our own mind and heart.  But we can’t access it because we’re afraid of one thing or another.  This process is about that!  It’s about helping us discard our egotistical cloak of protection that stops us feeling how we want to feel, and becoming all we could be.

As I focus on my heart centre, I can feel the energy pleading…’Please believe you can cope with the future’.  And whilst I know this is my heart communicating with me, because I’m feeling vulnerable about my life challenges.  I also know my soul wants to help others like me, who are feeling a bit wobbly at the moment, and this is why I felt compelled to write this post.

When we can’t see a positive way through our dark challenges, we believe there is no way forward, that life will always feel this bad. But we can’t see or know everything can we?  We don’t even see our own motivations most of the time, so how are we expected to be able to comprehend the mechanism of a simple, yet complicated-to-us energy force, that supports, sustains and develops  all life?  A force we try to fit in with our human understanding.  A force we try to limit, because of our inability to allow ourselves to expand and go with the flow!

So there we are!  A message from the heart that is trying to encourage the belief that all is, and will be well.  And we can cope with what life throws at us – as long as we remember that life is about learning through our mistakes!

I feel better now that I’ve released some of the repressed passion inside, that intensifies  during periods of high anxiety.  I needed to hear this reassurance from my soul!  I can’t control everything  and everyone in my life, any more than you can! But I listened to my heart today and felt consoled.  What about you though!  What is your heart saying to you today?

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Just after I published my previous post about breakdown, someone asked me to clarify the statement included below, so that is what this article today will be about. I would state beforehand, that I’m not writing as an expert on spiritual matters.  What I am doing is briefly relating what I’ve learned because of what happened to me….

“….Another cause of breakdown is when we seek entry into the spiritual realms, where our vulnerable consciousness is unprepared for the force of negative energy that we expose ourselves to, when we open our mind to the unknown spiritual forces that exist”….

I felt disillusioned that spirit was not all about love and light, as I’d believed. As my experiences showed a side of spirit I thought only existed in horror movies!  I won’t be describing those here. Only pointing out that once we start working with higher dimensions and higher consciousness, and enter into unknown spiritual realms that contain more species, good and bad, than we could possibly envisage, we can be propelled into mental experiences we are unprepared for!

Spirituality has many illogical aspects to it.  Such as miracles that happen, spiritual  beings that manifest to warn, help or heal us.  Even the fact we can communicate with dead people and entities, can be classed as unbelievable by those who doubt.  I’m not saying it’s wrong to doubt anything, as discernment is our saviour.  But humans are a composite form of mental, emotional, physical and spiritual energy.  Yet whilst we accept all other aspects, there is suspicion about our spiritual nature.  But why must it still be like this, when our spiritual nature can provide so much assistance to help us cope with physical life!

We can’t see our thoughts or painful emotions, yet we know they are real because we experience them, even if we don’t fully understand, accept or validate them.  This is what it’s like when we communicate with the spiritual world. We transmit and translate through our higher mind. So I guess this is the problem… communication is conducted intuitively through the mind, so has to be channelled, interpreted and passed on to others by the receiver.  So if we can’t see or hear what they do, how do we know they are telling the truth?

Charlatans are eager to take our money, and mediumship provides an easy way to do this because it’s individualistic, un-provable nature, can fool many.  So we have to be selective about where we place our trust regarding these matters. But what happens when we seek spiritual truth through our own higher mind.  And make contact with discarnate people, entities, angels, monsters etc., whose images fill our enquiring, yet fearful mind, stimulating fearful egotistical thoughts because we can’t seem to control what we see or think.  How do we decide what is true, what is real or imaginary? Because images extend beyond the logical parameters of tangibility, stimulating our fear responses, how do we know whether we are imagining these things, really communicating with higher intelligence, having a mental breakdown or simply going insane?

Our logical mind determines our truth and reality.  So if something doesn’t meet our criteria for being real, we question its existence. Often relying on views of other people to determine the validity of what we’ve seen, regardless of our feelings about it.  Because of ego influences, we often find it difficult to admit we’re wrong or different from others.  If others are unable to validate what we perceive, we may then go on to judge our perception as wrong, or visions imaginary, even if they’re not.  So there are those who hear, see or sense the spiritual world, but deny it because no-one else can see what they do.  This can lead the individual to believe they are hallucinating, terrorising them into the world of mental illness and all that it contains.  Whereas if their visions could be validated and accepted, they could find a way to work logically with them.

Once we start crying out to God for help, soul-searching, meditating, contacting our guides, channelling information etc., we open our mind beyond our logical parameters, and enter a dimensional reality that has different rules to the physical world.  We make contact with spiritual beings and higher dimensions through our higher consciousness.  We open our senses and our mind! We hear with our internal ears, we see through our inner eyes, and every physical sense is activated, as we prepare to feel any communication that proves we are being heard. Some people don’t see, but sense through the way they physically feel.  Others can hear. Some people can see, hear  and sense.  Whatever, the communication is conducted through the persons own mind, where most of the time no-one else sees the same images, hears the same voices or feels exactly the same, for the same reasons.

There are different ways we prove that communication is real.  A touch, a sound, a feeling.  So when we do find a way to ‘make contact’, and get proof that someone or something on the other side is responding, we naturally want to communicate more. So we reduce our protective nature, and allow our energy to become more sensitive. We open our mind and senses more, so we can gain access to more on other dimensions!  Where eventually, if we’re not careful, we start to feel ‘elation’ that we’re living in both worlds, thus without an anchor to keep us steady.

This is when we become most vulnerable, because we’re dealing with the unknown spiritual world, but allowed our logical mentality, which keeps us protected, to subside!  The problem is that not all beings on other dimensions are friendly and nice.  As some of them are distressed, angry or just plain psychopathic.  For some reason their soul has remained afloat after their physical departure, and although in the world of spirit, they’ve not received the healing they need, so still retain their physical personality and emotional defects. We believe, we trust, we fear! Thus, because we’ve opened our energy to the spiritual world, we’re like victims of slimy-handed pickpockets in a crowded market place, leaving our valuables on display to be stolen.

When working with higher consciousness, we have to learn that images are real on that level. That’s why visualisation therapy is so helpful – its reality enables us to create change, and expands our ability to manifest. But as we’re still working through our conscious mind, our egotistical fear, and unconscious mind are still in play.  Where as we explore higher dimensions, visions in the spiritual world can stimulate ego prompts that evoke fearful images and concepts from the conscious and unconscious mind, that become mingled  together. Meaning we have to understand that whilst visions in our mind may not be totally real, there are some elements that are, so we have to work out true reality!

Many people have been helped and reassured by spirit communication.  And although I’ve been helped so much over the years by loving guides, I didn’t understand the rules  of energetic world that connects everything to everything else. Most mediums I know have no real problems with the spiritual world.  And I honestly don’t know why I’ve had such a hard time.  I used protective techniques, I called upon my guides and God for help.  I did what I thought I had to do, in order to stop attracting negative energy and entities toward me.  I pray things are different now though, as whilst I feel compassion for lost souls who linger out there, my sanity is more important to me.  So whereas before I’d disregard how I felt and put their welfare first, by working with them to my detriment, if helping means compromising my energy, I will put myself first and run for safety!

I think it’s probably a good time to relate one experience here, which happened to me nearly twenty years ago.  And regardless of whether you choose to believe it, I can assure you that although I was depressed, I was not psychotic.  I was awake, it was not a dream or vision, but a real, tangible happening, that for some reason was to become just one of many that I had to learn to deal with and understand…

Laying in bed one night, feeling terribly depressed, just like many other nights I called out to God, begging… ‘Please help me.  Tell me who my guides are so I can call on them to help me.  Dear God, help me feel better!’.  Suddenly from just above me, to the right, I heard a ‘Whoosh’ sound, and saw a large hand emerge out of nowhere.  As the hand opened in the darkness of the room, I saw that it held a large white egg in its palm.  Though stunned, I felt elated!  God had finally heard my cries of despair and was giving me a gift. I reached out my hand and took the egg that was being offered to me.  I could feel its shell, but when I examined it more closely I saw two large holes in it. The hand and the egg disappeared. But as I lay contemplating this miraculous manifestation, I felt disappointed about the broken egg! ‘Why was it broken?’ I wondered, as I lay in bed, trying to come to terms with what I’d just experienced.  I pinched myself to make sure I was awake, and looked around the room to make sure I was still where I should be. Suddenly I felt something touching my breasts.  As I looked down in disbelief I could see and feel my flesh moving underneath my nightdress, as though hands were groping me.  But there was no other human in the room! As the groping became more intense I tried to move but couldn’t.  I didn’t know what to do, as I didn’t know what the hands would do to me next, and in sheer terror I screamed out loudly ‘Fuck off…leave me alone’, repeating it a few times before the groping finally stopped.  I didn’t sleep for a week after that!

Seems far-fetched doesn’t it.  Regardless, this happened to me!  I didn’t imagine it happened!

We live according to human rules, which we ignore or deviate from if we choose.  But when we enter into higher consciousness, there are strict energetic, universal laws that come into play, that will never change, regardless of how much we try to prise them one way or another.  The law of attraction dictates that like attract like, so needy people who seek solace through the spiritual world, will attract needy spiritual beings on other dimensions.  If you are angry, depressed, proud or whatever, when channelling you will most certainly draw spirits toward you that match your agenda.  This is no accident, as dealing with the troubled spirit allows healing and learning for both parties, according to the law of reaction which states ‘What you give you get!’.

When we do make contact with a spirit, and it tells us things, we should remember not to trust them until we get to know them better, and have proven their help is actually helpful to us.  As whilst there are beautiful guides available to help us, the spiritual world contains both light and dark entities, just like good and bad humans on earth.  Meaning there are some dark spirits out there who want to con us, because they want something from us.  Namely our energy!  Because when they can nestle like a parasite into our energy field, they can survive using our power.  Where eventually as they become stronger, they try to overtake our personality and live our life as their own.

You may think your guides will help, the angels will protect you.  But are you sure your guides are working for the highest good?  And are you experiencing your own feelings – or are you picking up on the feelings of an earthbound entity that has attached itself to you, because you’re feeling as bad as it, where like attracts like!

It’s a wonderful experience when we make contact with the energy of an angel, or higher spiritual guide.  Their sublime energy embraces you as you feel the warmth of their touch, or sense their presence, or  hear their words of comfort in your mind.  But it’s a different matter when you are touched by a dark entity, whose craftiness and despairing need clings on to your energy, sapping your strength and will.  The problem is, if you are already over-burdened, you may not even recognise the deepening depression, the extra-anxiety, the intensifying  feelings of heaviness on your shoulders.  You may think it’s just you!

If ever I’m in doubt, I close my eyes, put my attention to my mind, and say this out loud three times…

‘I ask my higher guides to remove all negative energy/entities from my energy system’.

I then try to sense energy rising upwards, from my body, leaving through the top of my head.  Try it whenever you feel low, see what you think!

We can choose to develop our sensitivity to such a level that we can feel other people’s pain.  We can hear their thoughts before they acknowledge them, we can sense what they are feeling and why, before even they are aware.  This is what happened to me a few years ago, where after working so hard to make myself more sensitive, my need for sanity meant I had to learn how to desensitize myself, because it didn’t feel good in any way. Opening our mind to higher consciousness means we’re able to see the truth of the world.  But we’re not used to this level of honesty and clarity, so as we try to make sense of our experiences, it can freak us out!

There are many who dismiss clairvoyance as ‘just imagination’, refusing to accept there is a spiritual reality at all. Simply because they cannot see, hear of feel what the medium can.  It’s for this reason that psychics have been classified as fraudulent, psychotic, insane, or simply having a vivid imagination.  But I am genuine and my experiences felt very real! Such as messages that proved correct, guidance that helped me and others.  Extraterrestrials who gave information about the birth of mankind and its development.  It also felt very real when I was sitting having a cup of tea one morning, when a native American guide manifested unexpectedly in front of me.  That was a total surprise I can tell you!  But these are the good things.

The bad elements also felt very real.  The aliens exiting from open vortices into our world, the hideous soul energy of murderers who still believe they have the right to harm others, the terrible pain of discarnate souls who committed suicide to find some peace, but are still earthbound.  The terror that rose in me during times I realised entities had firmly attached to me, that could drive me to the brink of insanity.  The worst of these times happened in 1987, 1996 and 2006.  Where the struggle to regain my personality after breakdown, felt very real I can assure you!

My experiences have proven the spiritual world is real to those who have opened their mind, consciousness and heart.  Images we see through our mind can be real or imagined – this is the predicament.  How do we know truth? I tried to conduct my spiritual behaviour according to my egotistical nature and its rules.  But it doesn’t work like that in the spiritual world! My energy was weak because I lacked self-confidence. I wanted to help them, but fear was so deeply ingrained within my personality that I made myself a target.

I hate it that I’ve had to experience the dark side of spirit.  I don’t feel a victim, as I know that whatever has occurred was for a valid reason. But when we lack experience, and are being fed energetically harmful information, our logical mind and physical personality can implode. Causing enormous overwhelm to our sanity, because we find it difficult to work out what is real and what isn’t any more!  Leading us to fear, with increasing terror, that we are losing our sanity, because we cannot control or stop the dark images, thoughts and feelings, that we have unwittingly welcomed into our personal energetic world!

I would clarify at this point that there are those who suffer mental health problems, for a variety of reasons, who are delusional and claim to have spiritual visitations. Where it’s vital they receive appropriate expert help.  And I accept that sometimes it’s difficult to determine if a person is unbalanced, authentically channelling information or just cold reading (as the experts call it).  My concern is, our soul energy is awakening to the call of natural evolution. Meaning we will all become more intuitive in the not too distant future.

But what will happen when your mind opens to other dimensions.  If you doubt spiritual reality, will you automatically assume the person who receives channelled guidance to be delusional, including you?  Because if so, you could hold yourself back by denying the crucial help you need! Or will you throw yourself in at the deep end, and just believe whatever you are told by beings you deem as having higher intelligence, when they have not?

This is the predicament mentioned earlier!  We live adult life according to what we were told as children.  We believed what we were told, even if it wasn’t true, because regardless, we thought ‘they’ knew better than us.  This is the same when we start to channel.  We believe spirit is good because that is what we’ve been told. We create new beliefs around our mediumship, and experience a new sense of power that we have another world at our disposal! It can make us feel very powerful, elated, in control, all-knowing and seeing.  It can also destroy our lives unless we close our mind, reject the images and allow our consciousness to come back to physical earth.  Then, next time we start communicating with other dimensions, once we’ve recovered our lucidity and trust we are sane, we will remain in control of our mind, take it more slowly and not believe every spirit is good, or knows best.

So we have to make up our own mind about what to believe, when we catch sight of dead people, angels, our guides and other entities.  And decipher whether our imagination is just running away with what we think we should be seeing, or even what we’re most afraid of seeing.  But maybe we need help to do just that!  What are your thoughts?

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I’ve spent my life searching for one thing or another, and have become extremely proficient at achieving most goals I set my sights upon.  But it worries me that I have developed so many skills and abilities, yet I’m still searching and still feel unfulfilled!

Setting clear goals to aim for is vitally important if we want to achieve more. And as my career path has been a stumbling block for some time now, because I seem unable to clarify what exactly I want to be doing with my life, I decided to review my career goal, by imaging as clearly as I could what success would mean to me.

As I closed my eyes the images were already starting to appear, where I could see myself at a huge, posh reception. My family was there also,  and we mingled with the celebrities and other successful business people, holding glasses of sparkling champagne in our hands.

When I asked my higher mind why I was there, it became apparent that we were all there to celebrate the success of my book, where publishers, publicity agents, press, people who had liked my work, were congratulating me on my success.

Even though this scenario prompted my anxiety as I envisaged its reality, I tried to make myself feel proud of me, as I watched the scenes evolve, relieved to think that maybe one day my current book would find it’s way out of storage, and others in my head might eventually be published.  But I wondered how this could ever actualise, as one of my biggest problems is my lack of ability to market myself.

Thus selling my creations has proven somewhat difficult in the past.  As regardless of the high quality and efficacy of my product, which I could acknowledge, I had problems promoting me – for various reasons I won’t even go into.  As the truth is, they should not still be affecting me now, after all the work I’ve done on myself!

So, because this was a self-awareness exercise, I knew I had to think about the scenes in my mind and find a way to see what I’d been missing!

A couple of days later, I realised that whilst the scenes I’d imagined may come as a consequence of my success as an author, there was still something missing.  As where did I go from there?  Would I aim for more successful writing, more fame, more money?  How would that make me feel?  The answer was clear!  This sort of success provided a sense of safety and esteem, as it could bring forth the financial stability I’d been striving to find for many years.  But it didn’t make me feel complete or euphoric!

Amongst other things I’m a counsellor, a helper, a healer, a light worker, or whatever else describes people like me, who have the ability and desire to help others cope with their lives. I know when I make a positive difference to someone’s life, because I get a wonderful feeling in my heart centre that confirms I’ve been helpful in some way.  Some describe this feeling as love, but it’s more than that.  It’s a feeling of totality that incorporates all other good feelings. But in the celebratory scenes in my mind, I didn’t have that feeling.  I felt proud of myself, relieved that my hard work had paid off, and grateful that my accomplishments had been recognised.  But I didn’t get that special feeling in my heart centre, that I loved to feel, and that made my efforts worthwhile!

The creation of my beautiful guidance cards (Insight Pocket Cards – available from my website, Amazon or Waterstone’s), was derived from spiritual guiding messages I’d received over the last twenty years.  One of the messages went something like this…..‘Fame is just for an instant.  So if you simply aim to achieve fame you will always feel a loser.  But if you search for meaning and purpose your name could live on forever!’

I’d taken this message on board when I received it many years ago, and appreciated being reminded that the ego can fool us so easily into believing we’re doing the right thing for the right reasons, when really we’re not.  But now this message had even more relevance to it, because although my intent was to aim for the highest good, the celebration scenes in my mind were clearly about financial security and stardom!

This doesn’t mean that it’s a bad thing or we can’t have it all.  It just means that maybe the long-term meaning and purpose has to come first, before we can claim the benefits of the rewards.  I thought I already knew this.  Just goes to show how we can fool ourselves doesn’t it!

Now at last I can recognise the stumbling block (I’ve sabotaged my success and fulfilment because I’ve been aiming for the wrong thing), I’ve got some work to do with my unconscious. Where I have to consciously create a route between now and the celebration party, that is filled with things that generate the good feeling I get in my heart when I’ve helped someone.

So instead of just seeking ways to earn money through my products, I guess my search is now going to be about how to find that good feeling in my heart, which hopefully will guide me toward my higher purpose.  The search continues…..I’ll let you know how I get on!

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